I need my brain to pick a fucking lane, either let me die or let me want to live, instead I get the worst of both worlds, a brain ready and trying to die but a nervous system fighting tooth and nail to live, this shit is fucking torturous. I feel like a larping, suibaiting piece of shit doing this for the third time in the span of like a month, oh my fucking God, I hate myself so much, it’s so fucking pathetic. I’m so sorry everyone for constantly doing this, I need a month long temp ban or something.
we’re just glad you’re okay lils. You aren’t pathetic. Just rest for now.
I shouldn’t have worried anyone in the first place, I’m sorry.
Of course we’d be worried about you. I care about what happens to you.
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I’m sorry, Cobby, thank you.
Just you being ok is enough for me.
I’m really trying my best to be OK but my best clearly just isn’t good enough and I don’t know what I’m supposed to do.
Not feeling bad about feeling bad sounds like a good start, wouldn’t you agree?
It’s only natural to feel so guilty for being such a piece of shit and doing this over and over.
But feeling this way only fuels that sentiment. You need to break the cycle.
I’m trying my best, but I’m going to feel like shit for a bit, given the circumstances.
That’s only natural. But you have people who care about you. You’re not alone with all of this.
I don’t actually have anyone irl though, and having people say they care about me on a tranny Reddit clone and Discord is only so much.
It’s understandable to struggle with this. I’ve struggled with it for a very long time. I know that even if your engagements have struggled with the conclusions, it isn’t a larp to express your feelings on this.
It can get easier. I’ve found a lot of success with asserting control over the terrain of my mind. You can turn thoughts into silly songs, you can visualize them as words on a book that you forcibly close and put away. It doesn’t have to be something you’re purely subjected to. Just because there’s things happening that you didn’t want to happen and cause you harm. It’s possible to assert yourself in your thoughts, though it can be a challenge. I think it’s good to try.
I don’t know how effective those kinds of coping strategies would be for someone like me but thank you for trying to help.
That’s very fair, minds can be so varied. I hope that you can find some way to address it, you deserve peace and happiness, and I hope whatever you do can help you on that.
I’m glad you’re ok.
I used to struggle with the same feelings, I’d attempt then panic and stop myself at the last second. I tried to come up with more certain methods but I couldn’t ever get close. I’m glad I didn’t, I think part of me wanted to live.
I think, I hope that part of you wants to live to. Maybe you want to live a different life but that’s still wanting to live. I hope the rest of you wants to live soon.
I don’t know, everything is really hopeless, even if I wanted to live it wouldn’t address the fact that living is a nightmare and the world is burning down and collapsing around us, even among people who do want to live I doubt they want to live through this, y’know what I mean?
I understand yea, I often feel the same way.
I genuinely just don’t know what to do about it, like the world is designed to maximise misery, it really feels like being suicidal is the rational response to everything right now.
It does yea. But that’s I guess why we have to maximise the joy in our lives
I feel like I have no way to feel joy in life right now.
I understand, I’m sorry
So glad you are still with us. Please don’t beat yourself up over this. Just try to focus on getting better :)
I’m trying and failing, I’m sorry for worrying you and everyone else, I hope I don’t do this again but I don’t have high hopes for myself.
It’s okay, the path to getting better is very long and difficult. Even if you do try this again we will still be here to support you afterwards. As long as you are alive there is still a way forward. :)
I feel guilty that trannies on the internet feel obligated to try to help me, but thank you.
i think its just it not feeling urgent enough, like yeah obvi ur actual body doesnt want to die it never wants to thats like it’s whole point lol. u gotta get to that point where it feels like you cant js simply wake up tmrw again,it’s gotta be actually now right now not then now rn ive had it a few times but didnt hv the means yet:(, i hv them now im js waiting for it to feel like that againn…
i mean i dk if ur acc like me like that, mayb ur not nd i js sound insane to u lol (hopefully lmao) but if not u and u legit acctually do still feel like u shld live just make sure you dont get to the point of being prepared enougb for it mayb ? u nless ur acc super impulsive which ig im.not so cant relate or give advice …,
