I need my brain to pick a fucking lane, either let me die or let me want to live, instead I get the worst of both worlds, a brain ready and trying to die but a nervous system fighting tooth and nail to live, this shit is fucking torturous. I feel like a larping, suibaiting piece of shit doing this for the third time in the span of like a month, oh my fucking God, I hate myself so much, it’s so fucking pathetic. I’m so sorry everyone for constantly doing this, I need a month long temp ban or something.

    • LilsOP
      3·
      5 days ago

      I’m really trying my best to be OK but my best clearly just isn’t good enough and I don’t know what I’m supposed to do.

      • RtHonAlice
        2·
        5 days ago

        Not feeling bad about feeling bad sounds like a good start, wouldn’t you agree?

        • LilsOP
          1·
          5 days ago

          It’s only natural to feel so guilty for being such a piece of shit and doing this over and over.

          • RtHonAlice
            2·
            5 days ago

            But feeling this way only fuels that sentiment. You need to break the cycle.

            • LilsOP
              3·
              5 days ago

              I’m trying my best, but I’m going to feel like shit for a bit, given the circumstances.

              • RtHonAlice
                2·
                5 days ago

                That’s only natural. But you have people who care about you. You’re not alone with all of this.

                • LilsOP
                  2·
                  5 days ago

                  I don’t actually have anyone irl though, and having people say they care about me on a tranny Reddit clone and Discord is only so much.