I need my brain to pick a fucking lane, either let me die or let me want to live, instead I get the worst of both worlds, a brain ready and trying to die but a nervous system fighting tooth and nail to live, this shit is fucking torturous. I feel like a larping, suibaiting piece of shit doing this for the third time in the span of like a month, oh my fucking God, I hate myself so much, it’s so fucking pathetic. I’m so sorry everyone for constantly doing this, I need a month long temp ban or something.
I’m trying my best, but I’m going to feel like shit for a bit, given the circumstances.
That’s only natural. But you have people who care about you. You’re not alone with all of this.
I don’t actually have anyone irl though, and having people say they care about me on a tranny Reddit clone and Discord is only so much.
I get that :/