I need my brain to pick a fucking lane, either let me die or let me want to live, instead I get the worst of both worlds, a brain ready and trying to die but a nervous system fighting tooth and nail to live, this shit is fucking torturous. I feel like a larping, suibaiting piece of shit doing this for the third time in the span of like a month, oh my fucking God, I hate myself so much, it’s so fucking pathetic. I’m so sorry everyone for constantly doing this, I need a month long temp ban or something.
Not feeling bad about feeling bad sounds like a good start, wouldn’t you agree?
It’s only natural to feel so guilty for being such a piece of shit and doing this over and over.
But feeling this way only fuels that sentiment. You need to break the cycle.
I’m trying my best, but I’m going to feel like shit for a bit, given the circumstances.
That’s only natural. But you have people who care about you. You’re not alone with all of this.
I don’t actually have anyone irl though, and having people say they care about me on a tranny Reddit clone and Discord is only so much.
I get that :/