I need my brain to pick a fucking lane, either let me die or let me want to live, instead I get the worst of both worlds, a brain ready and trying to die but a nervous system fighting tooth and nail to live, this shit is fucking torturous. I feel like a larping, suibaiting piece of shit doing this for the third time in the span of like a month, oh my fucking God, I hate myself so much, it’s so fucking pathetic. I’m so sorry everyone for constantly doing this, I need a month long temp ban or something.
I don’t know how effective those kinds of coping strategies would be for someone like me but thank you for trying to help.
That’s very fair, minds can be so varied. I hope that you can find some way to address it, you deserve peace and happiness, and I hope whatever you do can help you on that.