I need my brain to pick a fucking lane, either let me die or let me want to live, instead I get the worst of both worlds, a brain ready and trying to die but a nervous system fighting tooth and nail to live, this shit is fucking torturous. I feel like a larping, suibaiting piece of shit doing this for the third time in the span of like a month, oh my fucking God, I hate myself so much, it’s so fucking pathetic. I’m so sorry everyone for constantly doing this, I need a month long temp ban or something.
It’s okay, the path to getting better is very long and difficult. Even if you do try this again we will still be here to support you afterwards. As long as you are alive there is still a way forward. :)
I feel guilty that trannies on the internet feel obligated to try to help me, but thank you.