I need my brain to pick a fucking lane, either let me die or let me want to live, instead I get the worst of both worlds, a brain ready and trying to die but a nervous system fighting tooth and nail to live, this shit is fucking torturous. I feel like a larping, suibaiting piece of shit doing this for the third time in the span of like a month, oh my fucking God, I hate myself so much, it’s so fucking pathetic. I’m so sorry everyone for constantly doing this, I need a month long temp ban or something.
i think its just it not feeling urgent enough, like yeah obvi ur actual body doesnt want to die it never wants to thats like it’s whole point lol. u gotta get to that point where it feels like you cant js simply wake up tmrw again,it’s gotta be actually now right now not then now rn ive had it a few times but didnt hv the means yet:(, i hv them now im js waiting for it to feel like that againn…
i mean i dk if ur acc like me like that, mayb ur not nd i js sound insane to u lol (hopefully lmao) but if not u and u legit acctually do still feel like u shld live just make sure you dont get to the point of being prepared enougb for it mayb ? u nless ur acc super impulsive which ig im.not so cant relate or give advice …,