i can go back to living as a regular man, I can do it, I just have to forget all this happened, no more troon thoughts
You’re not a regular man and can’t pretend to be one, sorry.
im not a woman either though, idk what I am. I don’t relate to the “woman brain in a male body.” I have like an agendered/male brain in a male body but I just happen to have the curse of sex dysphoria. It makes no sense. Idk how I’m not faketrans
you can’t. please don’t do it.
How long how you been on E? I was on for three months and quit two weeks ago - only a few people knew. Trying to cope with drugs and alcohol now.
please get back on :(
9 weeks. I feel like 21 is just too late for me. I’m never passing, not even close. I don’t want to be outwardly trans. I don’t want to be hatecrimed. I don’t want to be a crude imitation of a woman. I already repressed for 20 years (assuming I’m not just faketrans), maybe I can repress for more
but when i think about getting of e… the increased libido, rapestick function, coarser skin, balding… I just can’t do it, no way
It‘s never too late to stop testosterone poisoning ^^ I started at 24 and still got a ton of changes
ok… this makes me more hopeful
very much isn’t too late.
most aspects of my body aren’t going to change. Plus years of repping has sort of fried my brain. I don’t think I can ever see myself as a woman. I’m pretty malebrained too. I don’t know how I’m supposed to rewire my social habits (well ig I have none because I’ve been alone for so long) to interact with women and be viewed as one. Idk it all feels hopeless.
at least hrt rep :/
your brain is the most malleable part of your body. all of these things can very much change
ok, that’s reassuring I guess, I still just don’t know what actionable steps I can take. idk how to make friends. my social skills have completely deteriorated. I feel like a shell of a human with no personality
It all starts with simpler, more neutral thoughts about yourself. there are plenty of manners training courses and types for re-socialization courses (especially effective for traumatized and depressed individuals, I hear!) which all kinda snowballs into being healthier.
Repping is evil you shouldn’t do that…
I get it, being a minority sucks, but it is what it is.
It will get worse, trust, just a look at the male side of my family is enough fuel to keep me going at it.
A bit rough of me to say all of this sorry, but repping is genuinely awful and it never gets better, you’re just gonna curse your past self for giving up on it
i still just can’t accept I’m trans… why me… why couldn’t i just be a normal cis man. How unlucky :(
but you’re right, seeing my dad really does push me to keep going on e because like… if I looked like that I would rope instantly
i still just can’t accept I’m trans… why me… why couldn’t i just be a normal cis man. How unlucky :(
So true, I got reminded of this that one time my dad brought me to work with him…He usually is always annoyed at me for doing anything, but when he teached me about pipes and how they work and fix them… he was so gentle…
The thought of me not being that son, has been plaguing me ever since… sorry dad…
but you’re right, seeing my dad really does push me to keep going on e because like… if I looked like that I would rope instantly
It sucks that we have to resort to this to look somewhat decent and not have a mind cursed by T, but c’est la vie, god really has favorites sigh
