I just went on /lgbt/ and what if I am just insane… that place seems more honest about it… about ugliness, messed up sexuality, feeling sick, being an incels trying to cope, feeling like freaks… its a place where the idea that being trans is actually something real isn’t accepted compared with here…

And it makes me ask myself… what if they are right?

What if I’m just a male incel with delusions, a messed up sexuality, social retardation, too much internet access to early, trauma and mental illness…

Am I actually trans, is being trans even a thing? Besides passoids, transness is just ugly, always… at least thats what people say…

Lookism is also important, maybe the most important thing… if you are not pretty… you don’t deserve love

Right?

  • DysphoriaGirlOP
    1·
    9 hours ago

    But it won’t work… transition is a lie… a made up pipedream… an escapist fantasy… only 1% of all trans people end up passing and that’s if they were lucky or transitioned early…

    What if I’m not real and this is all just me trying to escape the pain of my life… I’m just an incel trannymaxxer but it will only get worse and not better… I will never be a good person.

    • shedik
      3·
      9 hours ago

      Only 1% of all trans people end up passing

      Any reliable source of this statistics besides your crippling dysphoria and insecurity?

      • noneday
        2·
        9 hours ago

        don’t be mean i don’t think it will help her :(

        • puppyoomf
          2·
          9 hours ago

          im fed up with her saying this shit. its obnoxious

          • noneday
            2·
            9 hours ago

            you are within your right as well. i don’t feel like it’s good to call her obnoxious idk if i was called that it would make me feel absolutely awful and i don’t think that’s gonna reduce the behavior you’re fed up with… that’s all

            • puppyoomf
              2·
              9 hours ago

              im saying it BECAUSE if i was called that i would feel absolutely awful too. it would make me think about what i was saying and how it made other people feel

              • noneday
                2·
                9 hours ago

                sorry, i don’t mean to be a pansy faggot

                • puppyoomf
                  2·
                  9 hours ago

                  its chill like i understand your rationale its just important to me that she hears it from someone

              • DysphoriaGirlOP
                1·
                9 hours ago

                I’m sorry… i didn’t think about the consequences of my actions

            • noneday
              1·
              9 hours ago

              it might be good for both of u for u to block her honestly

        • DysphoriaGirlOP
          1·
          9 hours ago

          No, she has every right to be mean… I’m not a good person and I know that

          • noneday
            4·
            9 hours ago

            she is fed up because she doesn’t want you to keep hurting and keep staying off hrt. not because you’re a bad person. just because you’re venting how you feel, your ““internalized transphobia”” doesn’t make you a bad person but only makes those particular views things that should change. You SHOULD be allowed to vent these anyways and if you want to get less reaction in the future you can try spoilering it.

      • DysphoriaGirlOP
        1·
        9 hours ago

        I’m sorry… I wish I could make you proud instead of angry with me… I wish I wasn’t hateable… I wish you didn’t need to be angry with me… I am so sorry

        • puppyoomf
          1·
          9 hours ago

          then stop fucking saying im evil and sick and perverted you piece of shit you dont know me

            • puppyoomf
              2·
              9 hours ago

              how ugly we are, how sexually sick we are, how we are just male incels trying to cope, how we are freaks…

              stop saying “we”. dont bring me into that shit.

              • DysphoriaGirlOP
                1·
                9 hours ago

                I’m sorry… my wording was bad… please don’t be angry with me… I’m really sorry

    • noneday
      2·
      9 hours ago

      im sorry…i want you to know i feel the same way often. but it gets better. this line of thinking is NOT the truth

      • DysphoriaGirlOP
        1·
        9 hours ago

        Why isn’t it the truth… everybody keeps talking about how much their life sucks… about how ugly they are… about how we are all sick… we are honest here… maybe on 4chan they are even more honest because they say it… they say it all…

        All this is just painful delusion…

        What proof do we have that we are real

        • noneday
          2·
          9 hours ago

          the funny thing is there’s no such thing as “real” we’re just a bunch of humans who feel a bunch of pain and there’s a well known way to reduce the pain (transition). it doesn’t go any deeper than that. Some people, in their mind, do feel it goes deeper than that for them, and they can continue to feel that way. But it’s a matter of belief. Like religion vs atheism. For me. I am having to put less weight into the meaningfulness/realness of transitioning and just focus on what I want. Meaning should come from getting what you want not some special fact that means you deserve to get it