I just went on /lgbt/ and what if I am just insane… that place seems more honest about it… about ugliness, messed up sexuality, feeling sick, being an incels trying to cope, feeling like freaks… its a place where the idea that being trans is actually something real isn’t accepted compared with here…

And it makes me ask myself… what if they are right?

What if I’m just a male incel with delusions, a messed up sexuality, social retardation, too much internet access to early, trauma and mental illness…

Am I actually trans, is being trans even a thing? Besides passoids, transness is just ugly, always… at least thats what people say…

Lookism is also important, maybe the most important thing… if you are not pretty… you don’t deserve love

Right?

  • noneday
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    11 hours ago

    the funny thing is there’s no such thing as “real” we’re just a bunch of humans who feel a bunch of pain and there’s a well known way to reduce the pain (transition). it doesn’t go any deeper than that. Some people, in their mind, do feel it goes deeper than that for them, and they can continue to feel that way. But it’s a matter of belief. Like religion vs atheism. For me. I am having to put less weight into the meaningfulness/realness of transitioning and just focus on what I want. Meaning should come from getting what you want not some special fact that means you deserve to get it

    • DysphoriaGirlOP
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      11 hours ago

      I’m just very tired right now again… very very tired and can’t think very well… sorry