I just went on /lgbt/ and what if I am just insane… that place seems more honest about it… about ugliness, messed up sexuality, feeling sick, being an incels trying to cope, feeling like freaks… its a place where the idea that being trans is actually something real isn’t accepted compared with here…
And it makes me ask myself… what if they are right?
What if I’m just a male incel with delusions, a messed up sexuality, social retardation, too much internet access to early, trauma and mental illness…
Am I actually trans, is being trans even a thing? Besides passoids, transness is just ugly, always… at least thats what people say…
Lookism is also important, maybe the most important thing… if you are not pretty… you don’t deserve love
Right?
No, she has every right to be mean… I’m not a good person and I know that
she is fed up because she doesn’t want you to keep hurting and keep staying off hrt. not because you’re a bad person. just because you’re venting how you feel, your ““internalized transphobia”” doesn’t make you a bad person but only makes those particular views things that should change. You SHOULD be allowed to vent these anyways and if you want to get less reaction in the future you can try spoilering it.