my mom had 3 daughters before me because she wanted a son. when i tried to ask her name suggestions when she was drunk i asked her something like “what would you have named me if i was a girl” and she made a joke about how she wouldve aborted me because she wanted a son. my entire existence was to be a son for her. to play sports and be boyish so she could be a boy mom. instead i grew up as an autistic shut in. she never got to be a boy mom i took so much away from her :(

for a while i justified it by saying my pooner sister was a son for my mom but she detrooned. my middle sister did sports and was a total tomboy growing up but still my mom never got her son and cant have kids anymore idk how to deal with this ૮◞ ‸ ◟ ა

  • deafsky
    4·
    12 days ago

    i’m being honest fuck cissoids that keep having children like hares just to fulfill some delusional fantasy of having x or y and then submitting their children into their retarded narrow expectations. i’m sry if your mother is not that bad but you don’t owe her any performance of gender you don’t want to do

    • honlarperlarperOP
      2·
      12 days ago

      im boymoding rn but im not detrooning even if i know it’d make her happy.

      • deafsky
        2·
        12 days ago

        that’s good at least, ygmi nona don’t let anyone tell you how you should be other than yourself 🫶

  • iwonderwhy21
    3·
    12 days ago

    I’m ngl, it sounds like a sad story on paper but I really can’t find it in me to care about parents who have a preference for what the gender of their child should be.

    You just do you, your mother brought you to this world but that doesnt reallt give her the right to police how you should act

    • honlarperlarperOP
      1·
      12 days ago

      she isnt policing me and is, at least outwardly supportive. (shes privately transphobic but whatever) i just personally feel bad about what i took away from her :(

    • honlarperlarperOP
      2·
      12 days ago

      she’s really not that bad though like she’s a performative ally but not malicious i dont think :(

      • DysphoriaGirl
        2·
        12 days ago

        Well at least you’ve got that but watch out… some people can be outwardly supportive but the moment it’s in their own backyard they become extremely transphobic fast