my mom had 3 daughters before me because she wanted a son. when i tried to ask her name suggestions when she was drunk i asked her something like “what would you have named me if i was a girl” and she made a joke about how she wouldve aborted me because she wanted a son. my entire existence was to be a son for her. to play sports and be boyish so she could be a boy mom. instead i grew up as an autistic shut in. she never got to be a boy mom i took so much away from her :(

for a while i justified it by saying my pooner sister was a son for my mom but she detrooned. my middle sister did sports and was a total tomboy growing up but still my mom never got her son and cant have kids anymore idk how to deal with this ૮◞ ‸ ◟ ა

    • honlarperlarperOP
      2·
      18 days ago

      she’s really not that bad though like she’s a performative ally but not malicious i dont think :(

      • DysphoriaGirl
        2·
        18 days ago

        Well at least you’ve got that but watch out… some people can be outwardly supportive but the moment it’s in their own backyard they become extremely transphobic fast