my mom had 3 daughters before me because she wanted a son. when i tried to ask her name suggestions when she was drunk i asked her something like “what would you have named me if i was a girl” and she made a joke about how she wouldve aborted me because she wanted a son. my entire existence was to be a son for her. to play sports and be boyish so she could be a boy mom. instead i grew up as an autistic shut in. she never got to be a boy mom i took so much away from her :(
for a while i justified it by saying my pooner sister was a son for my mom but she detrooned. my middle sister did sports and was a total tomboy growing up but still my mom never got her son and cant have kids anymore idk how to deal with this ૮◞ ‸ ◟ ა
I’m ngl, it sounds like a sad story on paper but I really can’t find it in me to care about parents who have a preference for what the gender of their child should be.
You just do you, your mother brought you to this world but that doesnt reallt give her the right to police how you should act
she isnt policing me and is, at least outwardly supportive. (shes privately transphobic but whatever) i just personally feel bad about what i took away from her :(