my mom had 3 daughters before me because she wanted a son. when i tried to ask her name suggestions when she was drunk i asked her something like “what would you have named me if i was a girl” and she made a joke about how she wouldve aborted me because she wanted a son. my entire existence was to be a son for her. to play sports and be boyish so she could be a boy mom. instead i grew up as an autistic shut in. she never got to be a boy mom i took so much away from her :(
for a while i justified it by saying my pooner sister was a son for my mom but she detrooned. my middle sister did sports and was a total tomboy growing up but still my mom never got her son and cant have kids anymore idk how to deal with this ૮◞ ‸ ◟ ა
i’m being honest fuck cissoids that keep having children like hares just to fulfill some delusional fantasy of having x or y and then submitting their children into their retarded narrow expectations. i’m sry if your mother is not that bad but you don’t owe her any performance of gender you don’t want to do
im boymoding rn but im not detrooning even if i know it’d make her happy.
that’s good at least, ygmi nona don’t let anyone tell you how you should be other than yourself 🫶
ty <3 but i probably also shouldn’t listen to myself tbhon