Country, I grew up in small towns and now that I’ve lived in a medium sized city for a few years I yearn for the country. It’d be hard to make and keep social connections but I find free nature very calming. Ideal would be an hour and a half from a major city ok the outskirts of a small town with a national park nearby. One can dream

call me EMILE which is and can still be a girl name and probably isn’t my deadname Ok girlie pop

There’s boymoders and then there’s reppers, one is committing but is just ashamed about it 🤓

I think being a complete passoid and boymoding are mutually exclusive if we are talking abt privileges, even if you had M on your ID and did your best to correct pronouns and have a masculine name your body speaks for you and people would treat you as a woman

90% of the time they are those people, it’s almost a “every square is a rectangle but not every rectangle is a square” situation. I do think that you can even be a transsexual and still not be transgender and do all the bad stuff theyfabs/mabs do, it’s just vanishingly rare or short lived. Transsexual is a modifier of transgender (99% of the time), and people can still have social dysphoria even if they don’t have any physically (or not enough dysphoria to weigh over the cons of hrt). I’ve met and dated NB people with whom it was apparent that they were nonbinary even without hrt, and I still respect them

The hard part is that it hurts to have it, but if you’re a repper and you’re too ashamed of yourself, what you think a woman is , or afraid of the social consequences, then you don’t live a trans life and your experience and class position are different than mine, I’m talking about stuff in a broader political practical context than a psychological one.

Stay on hrt bitch!!! You don’t want that white picket fence with a wife and kids only to not be able to take it and destroy ur family. You don’t want to live in regret that builds and builds as you age. It SHOULD feel horrifying

With what I have access to as someone not inside the others head I’d say the former

As an internal experience I think it’s a mix/feedback of both, there has to be an integrative process and that’s not necessarily something you can’t help have. With my logic I guess any repper isn’t trans, and I don’t think that’s true in some cases, but a function of a system is what it does and if a repper isn’t willing to deal with the shame, the ridicule, and the loss of privilege then they don’t live a trans life, they repress that life for the life of a man and the whole experience is qualitatively different than a cis man but its still not where I’m at

I’m glad I posted this, really good to have discourse

Hehe I’d say there’s a big difference between a repper and a boy moder, the latter has committed with hrt and is just ashamed of it

NOT a gock joke just a sex joke. Many things could be a hedgehog I’m sorry 😭

I was playing with her hedgehog ayo

Sweet :3

Agp/aap become useless if we define it as auto-eroticism because everyone is auto-erotic to some extent. I do think it’s a thing, but it’s strictly relegated to sissies/CDs and their fetishistic view of womanhood (aap in this context would be… too tired to think)

Any earnest trans girl who says theyre agp is just brainwormed

Most drop during infancy actually, at least that’s what my sleep deprived self is understanding.

I could see a urologist, I have a bajillion things wrong with my body (autoimmune, allergies) and small abnormalities (growing hypermelanation, cryptorchidism), so it’s low on my list of priorities. What I’d LOVE is if I could get a gene test, because all of these things, including my autism, could at least have a source in something concrete.

Even if I’m not intersex, maybe it caused a hormone disorder that influenced my gender? Idk, nice to know I’m not the only one on this small board and I’m sure it’s quite common in trans populations compared to cis ones

I’m a stupid huntermoder I will never keep the fire fuck my idiot chug life