At this point… I just feel like there is no point in transitioning at all anymore… because it will not work, will make my family kill me or themselves, will destroy my future job opptertunities, will bring about death, misery and poverty to my future and I will still look like a fucking moid. I am 20y old… quite honestly, that is absolute lateshit territory and I am not saying that to ragebait but because we simply cannot compete with the wave of youngshits coming out of the household of accepting parents and because we have to be honest that nowadays 20y old is extremely late and either caused by being faketrans or by knowing that you were trans at a young age but having abusive parents (in my case it is because I am faketrans)…
Life will only get worse…
I mean I’d be lying if I didn’t get the mindset, but your life is gonna be shit (and probably worse) if you continue to rep. I’m trying not to be pessimistic bc I want to encourage you to transition but having dysphoria is already kinda a lose-lose
Why? WHY? Why did I suddenly wake up with dysphoria… I just dont get it… why did all of this suddenly need to happen… this is all the fault of my male best friend for hugging me and turning me gay and then the online woke mind virus, the queer slippery slope
Lmao, ruthlessly blaming your mate, faggotry is inert, nothing acquired.
He turned that switch. It is his fault or my fault for not convincing myself that it is simply touch starvation…
You’re a fag, deal with it.
Fag = moid = not woman… checkmate liberal
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Not realizing you are “”“trans”“” until you are 19y old is retarded… if you didnt realize early on you are simply faketrans and should not transition… it is also retarded to doom myself to being an orgehon for the rest of my life…
There is always a point in not being a repper
No, there is not. That is fucking stupid. If I rep then I can have a normal life and just kill myself when I feel like I cant take it anymore, but I can at least get a few years out of it… but sadly I am too mentally fucking ill to function like a normal human being
Normal life is when every day is spent agonizing over what could be, over what you’re denying yourself, all for some imaginary normal life as a normal man that doesn’t even exist, got it
Okay forget the whole “live as a great man” thing… how about I just live as a repper due to the fact that transition wont work and if I try my family kills me… Why not simply try my best to get a stable desk job, a tiny apartment, then simply play videogames in my free time, write books, read, have no ambitions, hook up with gay men (these horny animals) at most if I feel like it, and simply die one day… why not just repper waste my life away…
if youre too mentally ill to function as a human being why not take the medication meant to make you a functional human being? manmode for the rest of your life if you want just take the e
Because transition could make my life even worse…
do you genuinely think your life will be anything but pain and misery and pure foggy static in your brain if you decide to full rep
It all has not gotten better in the last 6 years… maybe I never actually tried to get better, maybe I am too broken or maybe I am just horrifically too comfortable or uncomfortable… I dont know if anything will ever get better…
things dont just get better, and they dont just get worse, life is the worst rollercoaster you will ever be in, theres highs and lows and the most we can do is choose the direction we want to take it
and there is comfort in sadness, comfort in desolation, but its also the bottom of the well, the end of the barrel, to choose such comfort is to abandon the comfort of breeze and of sun
like i said, you dont get to make the highs and lows go away, just choose in what direction you want this ride to be headed
Yes
What for seriously… you’re telling me that spending the next decade of my life obsessing over my body proportions, trying to present female and facing family brekdown and social ostracisation because of it, risking getting raped and killed, having my rights and “healthcare” stripped away, never having a relationship or family, never being hired of anything at all and ending up permanently unemployed and pumping myself full of hormones (forever) and spending probably tens of thousands on surgery while also continuing to suffer severly mentally from my appearence and ending up still looking and being treated like a man or at best a third gender freak… you want to say that life is supposedly worth living… how is this life worth living or better than that of somebody who simply sucks it up and tries to lifemaxxx in every regard, cures his depression and at most simply breaks down at 50y (at which point just offing myself is good enough for me if I have lived a good couple of decades)… how? How? I just dont get it…
THERE IS NO HOPE
Yes it fucking is worth it. This line of thinking doesn’t get you anywhere. Some people start transition and hope for a bright future by the age of 26 and I will always support them because there is a shkt at happiness, eith a good chance of it as well. Semipassoid status is enough to be somewhat at peace and sorry but semipassoid isnt the hardest goal to reach
semipassoid isnt the hardest goal to reach
LAUGHING MY FUCKING HEAD OFF. KEK. For so many this is impossible!
semipassoid is still a person who doesn’t pass. it literally isnt impossible unless you keep exaggerating every trait of yours to be the worst there is when in reality people have fucking passed with your exact measurements. Passoid status? Yes that is locked away for some. But semipassoid? That’s a glorified twinkhon. It’s for from the realm of impossibility considering how much you can fraud with clothes.
Semipassoid is not a glorified twinkhon… it is somebody who in a dark club late at night with a bunch of drunk guys passes and who regularly malefails but never can achieve full passoid status… somebody where people say “hello ma’am… oh sorry sir…? eh…” and so no a semipassoid is exactly that… somebody who almost or semi passes…
Semi literally means like 50% of the time. Enough to not be instantly gendered male by strangers (possible) i suppose. Also going to a dark club alone is idiot behaviour even for gigapassoids because drunk men will always want to rape you
i wish i had an answer i guess if you transition there is a chance you will be happy at times whereas if you dont youre guaranteed to be miserable forever i think its kind of a pride thing like rather than just weighing whether it will actually make you happier its just doing something that you want to do just because you want to do it idk dont listen to me im retarded
