At this point… I just feel like there is no point in transitioning at all anymore… because it will not work, will make my family kill me or themselves, will destroy my future job opptertunities, will bring about death, misery and poverty to my future and I will still look like a fucking moid. I am 20y old… quite honestly, that is absolute lateshit territory and I am not saying that to ragebait but because we simply cannot compete with the wave of youngshits coming out of the household of accepting parents and because we have to be honest that nowadays 20y old is extremely late and either caused by being faketrans or by knowing that you were trans at a young age but having abusive parents (in my case it is because I am faketrans)…
Life will only get worse…
Okay forget the whole “live as a great man” thing… how about I just live as a repper due to the fact that transition wont work and if I try my family kills me… Why not simply try my best to get a stable desk job, a tiny apartment, then simply play videogames in my free time, write books, read, have no ambitions, hook up with gay men (these horny animals) at most if I feel like it, and simply die one day… why not just repper waste my life away…