At this point… I just feel like there is no point in transitioning at all anymore… because it will not work, will make my family kill me or themselves, will destroy my future job opptertunities, will bring about death, misery and poverty to my future and I will still look like a fucking moid. I am 20y old… quite honestly, that is absolute lateshit territory and I am not saying that to ragebait but because we simply cannot compete with the wave of youngshits coming out of the household of accepting parents and because we have to be honest that nowadays 20y old is extremely late and either caused by being faketrans or by knowing that you were trans at a young age but having abusive parents (in my case it is because I am faketrans)…
Life will only get worse…
Yes
What for seriously… you’re telling me that spending the next decade of my life obsessing over my body proportions, trying to present female and facing family brekdown and social ostracisation because of it, risking getting raped and killed, having my rights and “healthcare” stripped away, never having a relationship or family, never being hired of anything at all and ending up permanently unemployed and pumping myself full of hormones (forever) and spending probably tens of thousands on surgery while also continuing to suffer severly mentally from my appearence and ending up still looking and being treated like a man or at best a third gender freak… you want to say that life is supposedly worth living… how is this life worth living or better than that of somebody who simply sucks it up and tries to lifemaxxx in every regard, cures his depression and at most simply breaks down at 50y (at which point just offing myself is good enough for me if I have lived a good couple of decades)… how? How? I just dont get it…
THERE IS NO HOPE