Like maybe troonism is just a trauma response and we internalized a lot of misandry from a boy hating world and homophobia which is why we are trying to escape from manhood because we cannot stand being either incel heterosexual failures or endlessly hated gay men and so we try to become women but in that process cut of our phallus and masculinity which is almost like a satanic ritual of mutilation and we actually are give ourselves over to a hedonistic life style and the succubus theory is correct and we even if we pass, we will age and have no children and so will be a detriment to humanity and will one day regret this path we chose and realize that it was just a self destructive path, moving us away from God and leaving us infertile, ugly and medically ill…

And we are evil because we literally are taking away our masculine strength and power and energy and responsibilities (The Phallic Order of the World) and thereby making our nation’s weak and moving society and civilisation towards death and destruction like the Roman Empire…

And it is all just idk an autistic expression of mental illness and we literally are just the final logic of pedophile queer theory and they invented gender identity to be a subversive force and to femininize men and take away our testosterone and make men in society weaker and make us castrate ourseli ves which will lead to barbarian nations where men are still very masculine to conquer us and dominate us.

And then this will be the fall of western civilization and the end of the industrial Era as the world plunges either into hypercapitalist imperialist dystopia or into barbarism and then we all will realize that we tried to play God and change the way we were made and will kill ourselves because we actually deserved to die from day one because of how sick our souls were…

Failed Sons… maybe that’s all we are…

    • RepressorBoyOP
      13·
      13 days ago

      Their words still echo in my brain and I can’t get them out… it’s not what I wanna think but I can’t get their ideas out of my head.

      • justsomefag
        6·
        13 days ago

        You have to work on that and change it, both for yourself and others that get hurt by those beliefs

        • RepressorBoyOP
          1·
          13 days ago

          I just don’t even know how because dysphoria and the way society will treat you as if you’re subhuman make all of this feel real… and it just all feels hopeless

          • justsomefag
            3·
            13 days ago

            You have to change it and you have to figure out how. You can’t keep enabling yourself through this place and the people that comfort you

            • RepressorBoyOP
              1·
              13 days ago

              I can… and one day you all will abadon me… and then my abusive rotted soul will try to find other people to emotionally abuse… quite honesty… the most moral thing to do is to kill myself and spare others from my demonic existence…

              And no, I don’t know or think I can know how to get better… I don’t have any hope at all that I can or will ever get better…

              I just wanna give up and die

    • RepressorBoyOP
      1·
      13 days ago

      Can I instead give up on being alive… I have no hope anymore. The pills won’t change anyhting

      • ✿hannah✿
        1·
        13 days ago

        No, you have to try! Cmonnn you cant give up without even doing hrt once!!! Are you closer to getting hrt?

            • RepressorBoyOP
              1·
              13 days ago

              I haven’t called the fertility clinic yet, so I’m not any closer

              • ✿hannah✿
                4·
                13 days ago

                FUCK THE FERTILTT CLINIC GET E ARE YOU DUMB

                YOU WILL NEVER BE A MAN. YOU WILL NEVER INSEMINATE A WOMAN BECAUSE YOURE NOT A MOID

                AHHHHHHHHH

                • RepressorBoyOP
                  11·
                  13 days ago

                  I have to do it so that I don’t throw away all of my worth as a human being, so that at least I’m not completely demonic and subhuman and a sinner and destined for hell and just worthless subhuman scum.

      • Maffy
        6·
        13 days ago

        I skimmed it a lil’ and this shit is not comprehensible.

        Women want to live their lives as women, big deal. Who cares about keeping the nations strong? As if they need such a small and opressed portion of the population in the first place.

        Also what the fuck is an “autistic expression of mental illness” like literally

  • Cambi
    5·
    13 days ago

    Deranged transphobic ramblings by DysphoriaGirl? Never happened before and here it is again.

        • RepressorBoyOP
          11·
          13 days ago

          How about I kill myself instead cause that honestly is a lot less impossible than healing or whatever… therapy and psychiatry and all that bullshit are just exploitative lies and money making and it doesn’t work. If you are fucked up on a fundamental level like me, there is no hope… my fucking essence is just rot.

      • Cobweb46English
        4·
        13 days ago

        Am i , a Failed .Man? Am, I, All .Of These, Things?

          • Cobweb46English
            1·
            13 days ago

            ,U Aren’t , .Take Your, Estrogen ,Bossmaams ,

            • RepressorBoyOP
              1·
              13 days ago

              You don’t know that. And pills won’t do anything. Nothing will ever change.

                • RepressorBoyOP
                  11·
                  13 days ago

                  No, don’t… again repping >>> detroon…

                  Detrooning is stupid. Its like poker. You already went all in, now play your hand. You don’t fold after raising…

  • Loose_Sandwich9217
    3·
    13 days ago

    thereby making our nation’s weak and moving society and civilisation towards death and destruction like the Roman Empire…

    uhhh, based alert???

  • Basedandtrollpilled
    2·
    13 days ago

    I don’t wanna cut my dick off wtf. I’m just a partial female trapped in a fully male body. My trvNB mind cannot comprehend this

    • RepressorBoyOP
      13·
      13 days ago

      Youre trveNB… (how is that even thing?)

      But I personally am faketrans because I’m not okay with the technology available for SRS and wish I could have real female genitalia… but that’s just a lie and excuse that I myself have convinced myself off because at the core I am an AGAMP subhuman freak that should die.

      • Basedandtrollpilled
        1·
        13 days ago

        I understand wanting truly identical female genitalia. And not wanting to get an imperfect imitation… I don’t think that’s a lie, that’s just a personal preference… I prefer the same too I mean.

        • RepressorBoyOP
          2·
          13 days ago

          I feel like it is a lie to cover up my perversion cause I also dont want the thing down there to stop working cause it already doesnt and I just dont want to loose sexuality forever despite already feeling like it only brings me pain… others want ED… but I dont, faketrans award

          • Basedandtrollpilled
            2·
            13 days ago

            Like every troon is to some aspect mentally ill, you’re just more utilitarian than most. That doesn’t make you a fake tranny evil rapemoid. That makes you the opposite of evil rapemoid. The mentally ill tranny.

        • RepressorBoyOP
          1·
          13 days ago

          I still don’t know what you mean by 56k… kilobytes? 56 thousand… what’s 56k…

          Also good for you… you knew… you are a real person… I’m not a real person… I don’t feel like I even have a fucking soul… I’m just dying… all the time… I don’t have a nice story to tell myself about how it’s always been this way… I am not a real person… I’m an emptiness pretending to be a real person… how can I have a future when I don’t even have a coherent past.

            • RepressorBoyOP
              1·
              13 days ago

              Seems like you are very old… why didn’t you escape a place like this… why aren’t you happy… why are you not out there, just living your life?

              Also, no I’ve never kept a diary… I wanted to do that as a child but I was very very scared of my parents and so now I simply have lost so much of my self because I don’t remember…

              I don’t know if I’ll ever start doing that… I don’t see a point in remembering, I don’t love myself. I’m not worth being remembered by myself.

              I need to call the fertility clinic… get an appointment… then idk… start in a few months with HRT… but I’m afraid… don’t even feel like I deserve to call them… don’t feel ready… feel like I’m just a mistake abusing the medical system…

        • RepressorBoyOP
          1·
          13 days ago

          Yes I do hate myself… but no… it’s not…

          the disgusting thing you feel like you are

          It’s the disgusting thing that I know I am.

            • RepressorBoyOP
              2·
              13 days ago

              I don’t believe I was born this way… I want to believe that everything is my fault and that I’m evil and and just deluded and bad… then it all just hurts less and saying such things feels more honest with regards to my fucked up life… I don’t feel like I’m somehow pure or was born as an okay human being… me being bad is my fault.

              My family doesn’t know cause they would literally kill me or forecfully inject me with Testosterone if they found out… my family is abusive and always tried to be okay nowadays at least but never let’s go of their fucking bigory and homophobia and transphobia and their utter disgust for things like me… they don’t know…

              But if they did… I would need to kms

                • RepressorBoyOP
                  2·
                  13 days ago

                  That is the neat part… I am so emotionally enmeshed with my family and dependent partly financially, heavily emotionally and deeply for everyday stuff regarding life (food and stuff) that sadly despte the fact that I technically live in a queer shelter… I cannot not visit and stay at their place almost constantly cause if I try to cut contact (which I also kinda dont want to) then they will either track me down or my mother will simply kill herself…

                  She threated to kill herself if I try (I did once) to cut contact again…

                  And now I am trapped :)