Like maybe troonism is just a trauma response and we internalized a lot of misandry from a boy hating world and homophobia which is why we are trying to escape from manhood because we cannot stand being either incel heterosexual failures or endlessly hated gay men and so we try to become women but in that process cut of our phallus and masculinity which is almost like a satanic ritual of mutilation and we actually are give ourselves over to a hedonistic life style and the succubus theory is correct and we even if we pass, we will age and have no children and so will be a detriment to humanity and will one day regret this path we chose and realize that it was just a self destructive path, moving us away from God and leaving us infertile, ugly and medically ill…

And we are evil because we literally are taking away our masculine strength and power and energy and responsibilities (The Phallic Order of the World) and thereby making our nation’s weak and moving society and civilisation towards death and destruction like the Roman Empire…

And it is all just idk an autistic expression of mental illness and we literally are just the final logic of pedophile queer theory and they invented gender identity to be a subversive force and to femininize men and take away our testosterone and make men in society weaker and make us castrate ourseli ves which will lead to barbarian nations where men are still very masculine to conquer us and dominate us.

And then this will be the fall of western civilization and the end of the industrial Era as the world plunges either into hypercapitalist imperialist dystopia or into barbarism and then we all will realize that we tried to play God and change the way we were made and will kill ourselves because we actually deserved to die from day one because of how sick our souls were…

Failed Sons… maybe that’s all we are…

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    I don’t believe I was born this way… I want to believe that everything is my fault and that I’m evil and and just deluded and bad… then it all just hurts less and saying such things feels more honest with regards to my fucked up life… I don’t feel like I’m somehow pure or was born as an okay human being… me being bad is my fault.

    My family doesn’t know cause they would literally kill me or forecfully inject me with Testosterone if they found out… my family is abusive and always tried to be okay nowadays at least but never let’s go of their fucking bigory and homophobia and transphobia and their utter disgust for things like me… they don’t know…

    But if they did… I would need to kms

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        That is the neat part… I am so emotionally enmeshed with my family and dependent partly financially, heavily emotionally and deeply for everyday stuff regarding life (food and stuff) that sadly despte the fact that I technically live in a queer shelter… I cannot not visit and stay at their place almost constantly cause if I try to cut contact (which I also kinda dont want to) then they will either track me down or my mother will simply kill herself…

        She threated to kill herself if I try (I did once) to cut contact again…

        And now I am trapped :)

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            13 days ago

            I am sorry to hear about your relationship with your mother

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            No, I can… when I first broke contact… she became very ill and depressd and suicidal and stopped eating, started having night terrors… I traumatized that women… while I just pretend to suffer…

            I dont actually suffer… I am just immoral… and demonic… I am the cause of her suffering if I leave her. My father ended up in the hospital from stress due to me leaving them.

            When I once made her feel like I was gonna leave again, she had a panic attack and literally lost consciousness and went insane and screamed and cried… Of course if she kills herself, then it is gonna be my fault… I should just killl myself… quite honestly…

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                    I can’t do it because if I do she will die. That is not a point of discussion. She will simply die of a broken heart. And it’s not like she’s a bad person or a bad mother. She just has her flaws, okay. And besides… it’s not like my suffering is bad enough to justify doing that much harm.