I have been less active on tranistan.com the last few days… generally I’ve just been tired, sad, burned out and overwhelmed with university… yesterday I have not used tranistan. I only today found out about all the things that happened. It’s all really tragic and messed up and we all really need a break…
Personally I took care of myself two days ago and was able to lower dysphoria… maybe that’s the reason for why I feel the way I do right now…
Since I found 4tran my desire to transition and my dysphoria have been on an all time high but with everything going on and that has happened…
I’m not sure… I’m not sure if any of this makes any sense anymore… not using tranistant has not made me feel tremendously better but it prevented me from spiraling or obsessing because I was distracted and had to do stuff for university or simply distract myself with mind numbing entertainment or all that stuf… whatever… but I don’t feel okay anymore.
I feel like I don’t want to transition anymore because I don’t want to end up like all of you here… I don’t want to curse my life with misery… because you all have convinced me, blackpilled me that there is no such thing as trans joy, happiness without passing or generally any value to being trans. That it’s wrong.
Maybe I’m just less dysphoric right now… but because of everything that is happening… I just can’t stand it all anymore… if I quit thinking about it all or engaging with anything trans related… then the thoughts might go away… I hope they do… bcause you all made sure that i know that killing yourself is preferable to being trans…
I will probably still use this place… I’m not leaving but if this place is supposed to be a “community” then things really need to change for the better…
vehemently disagree with paragraph 5 and 6, the rest is very truth, if this place is causing you to spiral and/or obsess over things perhaps you should heavily reconsider your relationship with it, not in a “quit cold turkey” way but more like, control your usage of it to limit exposure to more doomy stuff, I blocked the MtF, FtM and TERF larping commies because I don’t wanna see that shit
My brain is permanently fucked… I’m blackpilled now… there is no mercy or love in this world. Only value. And I’m not valuable. A tranny is one of the least valuable things there is… passing is simply not possible… trannies are unlovable… trannies are never real women… trannies are perverted men and will be hatecrimed sooner or later… trannies are unemployable… being trans is not a worthwhile existence… trannies 41% in the end anyway… hrt does nothing… voice training is limited as well by your biology… you’re just a man on hrt with gyno… socialisation cannot change that deeply… malebrained… faketrans… agp… once a man always a man… once male always male… there is no point in trying…
I feel like I don’t want to transition anymore because I don’t want to end up like all of you here…
Charming, thank you.
hrt does nothing
You indeed greedily gobble up the most braindead takes you can find.
you’re just a man on hrt with gyno…
If you want to talk shit about yourself, be my guest. The way you’re phrasing it, however, is an insult to all of us and this isn’t the first time it has happened. I’m starting to believe you seriously see us this way.
I’m starting to believe you seriously see us this way
You all keep taking about yourselves this way… everybody here just does that all the time and yeah I am part of the problem but what do you expect me to do… just stop being miserable. No, I don’t want to think about all of you this way and I don’t… also me saying “you” was meant to mean “me” and people exactly like me. Many here are gonna make it cause they either are somehow not fucked in the head in a self defeating way or because they are actual larpers who thrive on the suffering of hons. I mean… it seems this way all the time. All the people here who are actually happy, maybe shouldn’t be here because this is meant to be the place for miserable suicidal ugly hons, isn’t it… right?
You and others yourself said that this place is essentially like a self harm forum… then why do people who get upset about this stuff stay here. And yes I get upset about it because I hoped that maybe there is hope and community…
But everything showed me that no, actually not. Life is brutish and only those with value are worth anything and being an ugly tranny makes you worthlwss. If you dont believe this and want to go and be happy then do that. But you all convinced me, made me believe that all this blackpilled shit is true. Because maybe all the self depreciating posts and memes and theories about why we are subhuman are just edgy humor for idiotic fucking 14y olds here that larp as 18y olds but for people like me… it is a fucking reflection of what life feels like… like one big giant: “kill yourself, you disgusting tranny” That’s how life feels.
Charming, thank you
I mean look around… all of us here want to kill ourselves or hurt ourselves almost all the time. Everybody here is miserable. I don’t want to be miserable. And it ain’t like this place is just reppers. It’s mostly people who transitioned already. So how then is transition gonna help people supposedly with their misery when it clearly didn’t help a lot of the people here.
gobble up braindead takes
I mean do you expect me to do anyhting else… this place is repeating them ad infitum and showing me constantly that they are true because either we’re the ugly leftovers of all trans people and the garbage container and all the happy passing trans people are somewhere else or we are simply honest that actually most trans people are miserable, never pass and kill themselves eventually and that only a tiny few end up actually living a better life after trooning.
I am taking stuff at face value because this place was meant to be honest about how shitty being trans actually is… while all the sneeds are out there being opticsnuke fetishy rapebians and moderated by pedophiles on r/mtf
I mean look around… all of us here want to kill ourselves or hurt ourselves almost all the time.
I don’t.
Everybody here is miserable.
No. My life is alright. There are certain issues causing me serious pain, but it’s not as if this all there is to say about me.
So how then is transition gonna help people supposedly with their misery when it clearly didn’t help a lot of the people here.
It is certainly helping me. Just because something doesn’t work for some people it doesn’t mean it works for nobody. Also, a majority of the people who you say it is not working for would still prefer it over repping. They just don’t want to be trans in general, like any person.
I mean do you expect me to do anyhting else…
YES. Talk to people irl and you will hear tons of dogshit takes too, but you have to develop the ability to acknowledge the gems and separate them from the rubbish. This isn’t even about being a troon or this place, this is simply about life in general.
either we’re the ugly leftovers of all trans people and the garbage container and all the happy passing trans people are somewhere else or we are simply honest that actually most trans people are miserable, never pass and kill themselves eventually and that only a tiny few end up actually living a better life after trooning
Using the users here as a sample is not helpful because most are VERY young, so you are basing your judgment on teenagers and people in their early twenties, most not even a year on HRT. You are basing your long term outlooks on the perspective of people who lack long term experience.
I don’t. […] My life is alright
That’s you… most people here are miserable and if they are not then they are either twinkhon sneeds at best or honlarper passoids at worst. But most people are suicidal orgehons like me.
Also, a majority of the people who you say it is not working for would still prefer it over repping
Maybe they say that because they can’t bear the thought of admitting that maybe repping would have been the better choice and they ruined their life by trooning and so they cope by saying they prefer being a “man on hrt” who is cursed to manmode because the idea that maybe they could have still made it as normal happy man would maybe make them kill themselves.
Yeah some will genuinely prefer it but how much of preferring it over repping is troon social pressure and cope to justify that they trooned.
Using the users here as a sample is not helpful because most are VERY young
First of all… then they are all youngshits or at worst midshits… but being 20y old like me and already balding and this fucked up should be considered oldshit. 12-13 is passoidyoungshit. 14-16 is honyoungshit. 14-16 is passoidmidshit. 16-18 is honmidshit. 16-21 is passoidoldshit. And 20-24 is honoldshit. 22-24 is passoidancientshit. 24-27 is honancientshit. 27-30 is super oldshit.
There you go… even made you a new system
You are basing your long term outlooks on the perspective of people who lack long term experience.
Our knowledge about why being trans is not worth it comes from all the hons killed out there and all the observations and knowledge we have from the bonepill and socialisation theory and everything else…
They just don’t want to be trans in general, like any person.
Then you essentially admit that repping is better because as long as you don’t troon, you’re essentially de facto still cis or at least can still navigate society as a cis person…
I have done what I can.
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I’m sorry… I was having a really bad day and was feeling extremely miserable… I just had my therapy session and feel a lot better. You are right. Not everything is doom and gloom. And I should try having a more positive outlook. Thank you for bearing with me despite all I do <3
Don’t act as if you don’t believe in at least half this stuff. Either you’re a numb fucking person or you’re a larper…
wtf are you talking about, what makes you think you know enough about me to assume I agree with anything you said let alone half
What is this monologue lol
The fucking trvth… you all so fucking lame for acting as if a lot of that stuff isn’t repeated on speed dial here and the consensus of most people here
Do you take everything on this site at face value? If, somehow, you can log off and the troon thoughts mysteriously dissapear you’d be one in a million that’s what I’ll say
Yes I take a lot of things at face value cause this was meant to be the place where people are honest about what being trans is like…
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I’m sorry… you’re right about that. I should be more thankful. You all are really nice and have been very kind to me
