I have been less active on tranistan.com the last few days… generally I’ve just been tired, sad, burned out and overwhelmed with university… yesterday I have not used tranistan. I only today found out about all the things that happened. It’s all really tragic and messed up and we all really need a break…

Personally I took care of myself two days ago and was able to lower dysphoria… maybe that’s the reason for why I feel the way I do right now…

Since I found 4tran my desire to transition and my dysphoria have been on an all time high but with everything going on and that has happened…

I’m not sure… I’m not sure if any of this makes any sense anymore… not using tranistant has not made me feel tremendously better but it prevented me from spiraling or obsessing because I was distracted and had to do stuff for university or simply distract myself with mind numbing entertainment or all that stuf… whatever… but I don’t feel okay anymore.

I feel like I don’t want to transition anymore because I don’t want to end up like all of you here… I don’t want to curse my life with misery… because you all have convinced me, blackpilled me that there is no such thing as trans joy, happiness without passing or generally any value to being trans. That it’s wrong.

Maybe I’m just less dysphoric right now… but because of everything that is happening… I just can’t stand it all anymore… if I quit thinking about it all or engaging with anything trans related… then the thoughts might go away… I hope they do… bcause you all made sure that i know that killing yourself is preferable to being trans…

I will probably still use this place… I’m not leaving but if this place is supposed to be a “community” then things really need to change for the better…

  • RtHonAlice
    2·
    25 days ago

    I mean look around… all of us here want to kill ourselves or hurt ourselves almost all the time.

    I don’t.

    Everybody here is miserable.

    No. My life is alright. There are certain issues causing me serious pain, but it’s not as if this all there is to say about me.

    So how then is transition gonna help people supposedly with their misery when it clearly didn’t help a lot of the people here.

    It is certainly helping me. Just because something doesn’t work for some people it doesn’t mean it works for nobody. Also, a majority of the people who you say it is not working for would still prefer it over repping. They just don’t want to be trans in general, like any person.

    I mean do you expect me to do anyhting else…

    YES. Talk to people irl and you will hear tons of dogshit takes too, but you have to develop the ability to acknowledge the gems and separate them from the rubbish. This isn’t even about being a troon or this place, this is simply about life in general.

    either we’re the ugly leftovers of all trans people and the garbage container and all the happy passing trans people are somewhere else or we are simply honest that actually most trans people are miserable, never pass and kill themselves eventually and that only a tiny few end up actually living a better life after trooning

    Using the users here as a sample is not helpful because most are VERY young, so you are basing your judgment on teenagers and people in their early twenties, most not even a year on HRT. You are basing your long term outlooks on the perspective of people who lack long term experience.

    • DysphoriaGirlOP
      12·
      25 days ago

      I don’t. […] My life is alright

      That’s you… most people here are miserable and if they are not then they are either twinkhon sneeds at best or honlarper passoids at worst. But most people are suicidal orgehons like me.

      Also, a majority of the people who you say it is not working for would still prefer it over repping

      Maybe they say that because they can’t bear the thought of admitting that maybe repping would have been the better choice and they ruined their life by trooning and so they cope by saying they prefer being a “man on hrt” who is cursed to manmode because the idea that maybe they could have still made it as normal happy man would maybe make them kill themselves.

      Yeah some will genuinely prefer it but how much of preferring it over repping is troon social pressure and cope to justify that they trooned.

      Using the users here as a sample is not helpful because most are VERY young

      First of all… then they are all youngshits or at worst midshits… but being 20y old like me and already balding and this fucked up should be considered oldshit. 12-13 is passoidyoungshit. 14-16 is honyoungshit. 14-16 is passoidmidshit. 16-18 is honmidshit. 16-21 is passoidoldshit. And 20-24 is honoldshit. 22-24 is passoidancientshit. 24-27 is honancientshit. 27-30 is super oldshit.

      There you go… even made you a new system

      You are basing your long term outlooks on the perspective of people who lack long term experience.

      Our knowledge about why being trans is not worth it comes from all the hons killed out there and all the observations and knowledge we have from the bonepill and socialisation theory and everything else…

      They just don’t want to be trans in general, like any person.

      Then you essentially admit that repping is better because as long as you don’t troon, you’re essentially de facto still cis or at least can still navigate society as a cis person…

        • DysphoriaGirlOP
          3·
          25 days ago

          I’m sorry… I was having a really bad day and was feeling extremely miserable… I just had my therapy session and feel a lot better. You are right. Not everything is doom and gloom. And I should try having a more positive outlook. Thank you for bearing with me despite all I do <3