I know this is a quite insensitive question and I’m sorry about that. My intent isn’t to downplay people here as faketrans or to say I’m “trannier than thou”, if it comes off as that, I’m truly sorry, from the bottom of my heart. It’s just that I’ve been really perplexed about this for the longest time.

If it isn’t clear yet: I’m a youngshit. I know people here get really upset at reading anything youngshit related so I’ll try to not extend myself too much: classic youngshit backstory (I’ll talk a bit about how I realized I was trans, if you don’t want to read this but still want to answer the question, please skip this paragraph and read the next one!), knew it since very early childhood, even before I knew what a trans person was I knew something was wrong with my gender and that I wasn’t a boy, even though people insisted that I was one. When I learned what being trans meant, about when I was ten to eleven years old, I immediately knew that this was what I was, got on hrt at thirteen after getting a part time job, I’m about to turn nineteen now.

I never thought of myself as better than midshits or lateshits, I always saw them as people who have been living in unfortunate times and/or places, who knew they were trans but never had the opportunity to do something towards their gender dysphoria until they already went through natal puberty. However, some time ago I found out that some people genuinely never knew they were trans until puberty, and some only figuring out they’re trans long after puberty, not only that, but many engaged in more stereotypically masculine things too, such as working out and “masculine-coded” hobbies (other way around for trans men). I know none of these people are faketrans (not that I believe in that bullshit), since all of you display really heavy dysphoria, which just confuses me way more. Once again, I apologize if I offended anyone, it wasn’t my intention, I’m just really curious.

  • Alex
    10·
    1 month ago

    ngl, the constant “apologizing” and saying you’re just “curious” makes this seem even more bad faith than it did from the start.

    especially with the focus on people having masculine interest thrown in the middle of this too. my verdict, larp/bait.

      • Alex
        4·
        1 month ago

        could be a thinly veild bragpost ig too since whoever submitted this can see the comments.

        though if this was genuine curiosity then OP id definitely autistic for not seeing how phrasing things the way she did would hurt others no matter how many apologies she wrote.

  • criatura
    6·
    1 month ago

    bait post so i’m not reading it all. anyway i had no idea what trans people were growing up, and when i first started hearing about it it was mostly just used as another term for crossdresser/drag queen and being a weirdo/ groomer. later on all knowledge i still had of it was just that trans people always instinctively known from birth that they’re women not men, and since i didn’t feel that (growing up even if i wanted to be a woman i couldn’t think of myself as one bc i was amab and always told i was a guy so how would i possibly think otherwise) i just assumed trans people were different from me and thus didnt associate with it

  • Allie
    4·
    1 month ago

    I realized when I was 11 but it was 1996 and so I didn’t really have much of a chance to do anything about it. I think a lot of us just wound up feeling like it just wasn’t something that we would get to do, that it’s too late by the time it feels like a real option, and so you just try to repress, and fail

  • le_monde_est_a_nous
    4·
    1 month ago

    I had tranny thoughts from a young age and wanted to be a girl but “knowing I was a girl” was just not a thought process I had. It was more like “fuck I wish I was born that way sucks to suck ig”. I was also raised in a cult and did not learn about trans people until my late teen years and did not know transition was even a thing

  • rank1bedrotter
    4·
    1 month ago

    hrt at 13

    Jfc how did you ever end up here

    Tho ig it’s anon post so you won’t respond but like

    To answer the question tho idk. Like I always knew something was a little wrong with me but I never understood that it was gender stuff. The thought never crossed my mind until puberty hit + I learnt about trans ppl I guess

  • Demonic
    3·
    1 month ago

    I was bottom dysphoric in early childhood, but I never figured out until my twenties, largely because of being autistic and growing up in gender essentialistic, traditionalist family, where boys are boys and girls are girls. I never met any queer people that I knew about, my only knowledge about trans people was largely that there are some men who do a ton of surgeries to look like women.

    So I never even considered a possibility of me being a woman, because there is no way a boy can be a girl, at least that’s what was in my mind. I did identified as agender at some point, funnily enough, but I didn’t see enbies as the same thing as trans people then.

    Most of my life I just saw myself as “not a man”, rather than a woman.

  • MsYashM
    2·
    1 month ago

    I’m a lateshit (23), I knew something was wrong with me my entire life, i didn’t know it was related to gender tho, I didn’t know about sexual dimorphism that transitioning was an option. I was also fat since I was very young so I’ve always hated my body, couldn’t lose any weight for over a decade, in my head all my body issues were weight related and never gender related, im also a social weirdo, lonely all throughout my childhood, still am, so i didn’t have social dysphoria bc i was barely getting “normal” social interaction anyway, in my twenties sometimes id feel jealous of women but i just thought it was bc i was an incel, one of the non hateful ones but that doesn’t make it any less pathetic online, i did know about trans people but i kinda never thought it could apply to me, my egg cracked when shortly after i saw the inside mari vid and started lurking 4tran and the board, ive been thinking about suicide since as long as i can remember, I didn’t know what was wrong with me, my original plan was to commit suicide at some point, couldn’t see myself living, didn’t even know what was wrong, well now i know at least, it’s a bit late to start fixing at 23 tho

  • Shad
    2·
    1 month ago

    What counts as a midshit in terms of egg cracking?

    • MsYashM
      2·
      1 month ago

      mid puberty id say, prob like voice dropped slightly, little facial hair, likely to become a passoid even without ffs

  • Vlevleee
    2·
    1 month ago

    I actually discovered myself when I was 8 years old. I started sex at 12. I was correctively raped until I gave up.

    And so I only had the courage to go back when I was 22, but I still had to wait another 4 years in the doctor’s waiting list to get my HRT… Yeah, I’m too poor to do DIY, and I only get hormone therapy because the healthcare system gives me for free.

  • entertainhabitat2136
    2·
    1 month ago

    back when I was 12 years old, I started having thoughts about wanting to troon out. Unfortunately, due to the opticsnuke of the century at the time, I thought to myself that trans women would never be gigapassoids, especially due to the fact that none of the trans women I saw ever had a passoid voice (online especially, real life toupee fallacy). So that’s when I started repping. Making agp fantasies about some stupid magic bullshit that would turn me into a real women and fix my voice, becuase I thought voice surgery would do nothing and that having a moid voice would be forever. I even thought to myself that I can’t call myself trans unless I went through the process of trooning out. This went on for 4+ years, and even then, I thought to myself “just because I want to be a woman, doesn’t mean I’m trans” which was further reinforced by the repper redditors online saying the same thing. I thought to myself “surely I can’t be the 1 in 100 people who is actually a tranny” for some reason, not accepting it, because I thought trooning out would make me an ugly hon tranny with the forever moid voice. During puberty, I heard about puberty blockers. And what did I do? I repped further. Because I thought “puberty ruined my voice, I will have to rep forever” feeling miserable that I couldn’t take puberty blockers. That was probably around when I was 14-16 years old. Only the sneed subreddits actually made trooning out seem more hopeful and r/transtimelines with the people who trooned out at 16 or 17 (when I trooned out) being passoids by then. Even when I had to come out, I felt like I was gonna have a panic attack. It was a shit ton of repressing that wasted the parts of my life where I could have trooned out earlier. I don’t know, i’m stuck dooming forever.

  • thrwy809
    1·
    1 month ago

    i started questioning at like 12 but i didn’t rly live in a supportive environment and i found stuff like susan’s place which made me rep. i wouldn’t have even been able to transition bc of my parents so i had to wait until i got a job and moved out which was at 21ish