I know this is a quite insensitive question and I’m sorry about that. My intent isn’t to downplay people here as faketrans or to say I’m “trannier than thou”, if it comes off as that, I’m truly sorry, from the bottom of my heart. It’s just that I’ve been really perplexed about this for the longest time.
If it isn’t clear yet: I’m a youngshit. I know people here get really upset at reading anything youngshit related so I’ll try to not extend myself too much: classic youngshit backstory (I’ll talk a bit about how I realized I was trans, if you don’t want to read this but still want to answer the question, please skip this paragraph and read the next one!), knew it since very early childhood, even before I knew what a trans person was I knew something was wrong with my gender and that I wasn’t a boy, even though people insisted that I was one. When I learned what being trans meant, about when I was ten to eleven years old, I immediately knew that this was what I was, got on hrt at thirteen after getting a part time job, I’m about to turn nineteen now.
I never thought of myself as better than midshits or lateshits, I always saw them as people who have been living in unfortunate times and/or places, who knew they were trans but never had the opportunity to do something towards their gender dysphoria until they already went through natal puberty. However, some time ago I found out that some people genuinely never knew they were trans until puberty, and some only figuring out they’re trans long after puberty, not only that, but many engaged in more stereotypically masculine things too, such as working out and “masculine-coded” hobbies (other way around for trans men). I know none of these people are faketrans (not that I believe in that bullshit), since all of you display really heavy dysphoria, which just confuses me way more. Once again, I apologize if I offended anyone, it wasn’t my intention, I’m just really curious.
back when I was 12 years old, I started having thoughts about wanting to troon out. Unfortunately, due to the opticsnuke of the century at the time, I thought to myself that trans women would never be gigapassoids, especially due to the fact that none of the trans women I saw ever had a passoid voice (online especially, real life toupee fallacy). So that’s when I started repping. Making agp fantasies about some stupid magic bullshit that would turn me into a real women and fix my voice, becuase I thought voice surgery would do nothing and that having a moid voice would be forever. I even thought to myself that I can’t call myself trans unless I went through the process of trooning out. This went on for 4+ years, and even then, I thought to myself “just because I want to be a woman, doesn’t mean I’m trans” which was further reinforced by the repper redditors online saying the same thing. I thought to myself “surely I can’t be the 1 in 100 people who is actually a tranny” for some reason, not accepting it, because I thought trooning out would make me an ugly hon tranny with the forever moid voice. During puberty, I heard about puberty blockers. And what did I do? I repped further. Because I thought “puberty ruined my voice, I will have to rep forever” feeling miserable that I couldn’t take puberty blockers. That was probably around when I was 14-16 years old. Only the sneed subreddits actually made trooning out seem more hopeful and r/transtimelines with the people who trooned out at 16 or 17 (when I trooned out) being passoids by then. Even when I had to come out, I felt like I was gonna have a panic attack. It was a shit ton of repressing that wasted the parts of my life where I could have trooned out earlier. I don’t know, i’m stuck dooming forever.