• ✿hannah✿
    4·
    1 month ago

    I had early onset agp and then it went away and I teleported to 20 years old. Then I got dysphoria pretty much out of nowhere by getting into 4t4 and got hrt within 3 months. I chose to start hrt instead of repping because I just kept staring at r/transtimelines for hours every day and just imagined that could be me. I feel like people kinda hyped up hrt a lot, and I developed this kind of delusional belief that hrt would transform me into a woman and I would make it. Now that I’m on it the realization that it isn’t going to magically make me a woman hurts. Sometimes I yearn to forget all this and go back to being a man because trooning out will be suffering. The urge to give up and actually rep (kinda like what you’re doing) is growing every day. I’m just hanging onto a little hope that it will actually have changes (I’m 11 weeks hrt as of today).

      • ✿hannah✿
        1·
        1 month ago

        Wdym, you can go look at my faketrans post the last one I did, I had agp

          • ✿hannah✿
            1·
            1 month ago

            It’s just a word I use to describe how my dysphoria manifested, I don’t fully subscribe to blanchardism.

            • Kath
              2·
              1 month ago

              went back and looked at it you people are morons transition holy shit i hate you people. blanchard wanted agps to transition anyway

            • Kath
              2·
              1 month ago

              “faketrans” whatever if thats the only thing preventing you from transition i genuinely hate you imagine having the ability to transition

  • thrwy809
    4·
    1 month ago

    i got a job so i could support myself and moved across the country from my parents

  • Janettte
    3·
    1 month ago

    I saw a post on 4t4 about how men’s shoulders continue to grow during the ages of 18-21 and on that day i sat down and messaged gleep glorp about diy

  • dreamcaster
    3·
    1 month ago

    i finally opened up to someone (my ex gf) about my issues which brought all my dysphoria to the forefront of my mind and i tweaked out and realized i needed to get on estrogen before it was too late.

  • mika
    2·
    1 month ago

    realized that i wasted the last few years of my life by just locking myself indoors and trying to distract myself non-stop so i decided to finally dedicate myself to actually transitioning so i can start living again. got on T some time after that but i still have no life

  • neby
    2·
    1 month ago

    I didn’t. I just started taking HRT 3 years ago, but I’m still repping.

    • SPECTREagentOP
      1·
      1 month ago

      HRT repping is better than repping without HRT but after three years it’s it hard to hide?

      • neby
        2·
        1 month ago

        no, nobody suspects anything. the boobs are annoying though.

  • rank1bedrotter
    2·
    1 month ago

    Decided if repping would lead me to suicide I might as well come out and have my parents do the job for me

    Honestly I’m kinda sad they didn’t just kill me over it. Like I repped all this time so I got raped by puberty but now that I came out and everything I have to put up the whole hon but happy facade. Idk I should just end it all

  • sea_manufacturer8748
    2·
    1 month ago

    I think ive told u before but ill say it again LOL! I always wanted to go on hrt but it felt like it was always too stupid or out of reach even with diy but one night i was talking with one of my friends and she said i couldnt even look androgynous ( despite being told i semipass by looks on reddit and by my gf) and i realised that ive done all i can at that time and if i want to pass i need to actually go on hrt and start to live as myself

    • olivia :)
      2·
      1 month ago

      naur. i remember having a freak out bigger than any one i had before about it. then i scheduled my consult during that because i couldn’t take it anymore