Im at male T and E levels now after having been in female ranges for over 2 years. Patches stopped working for some reason. The only thing that happened was that i noticed i started smelling bad. It makes me feel so horrible and fake when someone talks about how just being on the wrong hormones makes them feel dysphoria when i only care about the idea of it. The only mental change is that im attention whoring my friends less, probably because im less emotional. I tell myself that i T is poison and I need to get my E back up, and I know I will, but I also know I don’t actually care about it. I’d be perfectly happy as a man if I didn’t keep up this delusion. I have almost no dysphoria but I fix that by generating a bunch of bad feelings by obsessing over my invalidity.