feel kinda faketrans cause idk if I’ve ever experienced it
I didn’t even notice I had it until symptoms became severe enough, I was so dissociated I scored zero on some test because I just didn’t notice that I was spacing out, I didn’t knew absence of any long-term memory wasn’t normal etc.
I didn’t even notice I had it until symptoms became severe enough
how long did it take for this to happen? Was it after getting on e and starting your transition?
Also I feel like I relate to the absence of long-term memory, but probably not severe enough to actually count
before e I was just a shell(that’s also a symptom) then I started it, and began to feel like I’m a person which lead to me remembering traumatic memories
Now I get pressure headaches, can’t move and see fractals and such
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im so srry u had to go through that, you did everything you could 🫂
Sometimes I feel my body is a puppet on strings I’m controlling from outside. I space out, especially when reliving trauma. My memories are blurred and the further from transition they go, the less they feel as if that person from my memories was me.
feels like i’m controlling my own sim
Kinda feel like im a spectator of my own life and body and cant do shit myself
It’s ok to not dissociate. I never did. I turned to other coping mechanisms (mainly drugs and drinking). I feel emotions too intensely and regularly have breakdowns
i drank a lot in high school but nowadays not so much. Idrk if I have any coping mechanisms tbh, I just scroll this place and cry every day pretty much
mostly visual things, like blurry, no colours, also the sounds gets softers, hard to talk or move sometimes
and i dont remember anything
wow I’ve definitely never experienced anything like that, sounds horrible :(
I pay very little attention to everything and I don’t have long-term memory. I can’t recall what I did two days ago, all memories from the past are non-existent, every day is flying buy and it feels like I don’t exist. I also daydream a lot
Samesies
same im so faketrans becaus of it
real plus like 50 other faketrans reasons, i should detroon atp
im really thinking about it. im so fucked. its too much work when im still ngmi
reeeal, im so cooked being 6’1 idek what the point is. I’m never passing with my face and height like what’s even the point. But I’m not getting off e anytime soon, I guess I’m treating my transition like palliative care. I just do these injections once a week and it makes me somewhat happier
that makes sense. im glad that it brings you some relief
personally it’s almost equivalent to brain death for me; sometimes that persists for days
brain death as in i could be playing some funny game with text in it and have to read like 8 times the same lines if it’s actually something important so even though i’m entirely focused on it and enjoying it fuck all is processing in my head
most of my trauma has lead to disassociation being my only escape so my case is way more severe compared to others
idk anymore, I’m tired. I’ll think about if I relate to the rest of these responses tomorrow. The only thing I’ve noticed is like, I have a really hard time thinking about my internal state. Like when I’m reading these things, I feel like it should be easy to say if I do or don’t feel like my body is a puppet on strings, but I’m clueless. The fact that I’m unsure probably means I don’t experience it tbf, so prob don’t have dissociation.
You probably have experienced it
You’re not faketrans. Being mentally ill is not a prerequisite for bring trans. It comes with the terrain but you don’t need to suffer x amount, except dysphoria, to be trans and deserve transition. I also don’t dissociate
