like, i am just as miserable and depressed and hate myself and my body as much as i did pre trooning. if not more in someways. the only reason im not absolutely 100% more miserable is because i lost nearly 100lbs and im happy about that at least.
but estrogen hasnt done anything for my mental state. there has been no clearing of mental fog. i dont have more energy, i dont feel more like myself, etc. i believe mental stuff like that is placebo personally, but everyone else doesnt seem to. but if its real like they say it is, then why didnt i get it?
the only explanations are that im faketrans or it isnt real. but if i say im faketrans and concede that fine, its not a placebo, i just get told that its complicated. or that i just dont have an unbiased view of myself or whatever. literally doing the evil psych thing of “i believe in X so if someone says Y that means theyre just not conscious that they really actually have X.” its stupid. i know myself better than any random trannies on the internet do. i experienced nothing when it comes to feeling mentally better. nothing at all. so which is it? am i faketrans, or is it a placebo?
in fairness theyre literally not real, the source for their existance is one single sneed website for figuring out if youre trans
which upon rereading it cites DAVID RAIMER as the source holy shit kms
again, i dont believe in it myself, but i wish people who did would at least be consistent and not result to freudian levels of mental gymnastics to say i just didnt notice or something
Yeah igi, I wish people wouldn’t do that when I say I didn’t used to be dysphoric before a certain age as well
oh yeah, thats another one thats really annoying too, i had 0 troon thoughts growing up, just general body image issues cause of weight
You mean The Gender Dysphoria Bible? I don’t really think there’s so much wrong with that tbh besides the honscience, very comprehensive for figuring out trannyness
besides the honscience
Thats what I’m talking about
did you not feel a sense of idk… agitation on t? like the energy boost stuff that cis women take it for. at least when my hormone balance changes i can tell which way it changes kinda? like if t increases i get more churning, if on e it was more a loss of energy… idk its hard to notice though
ive noticed literally nothing changing in my energy or mental state. now, the amphetamines could be stopping me from noticing becoming more lethargic tbf, but still. mentally im the same as i always have been
yeah i mean the amphetamines could be doing it. i also get similar churning feelings when im off antidepressants and in an extreme mood swing. idk im not a biochemical dysphoria person, i definotely dont think i function any better on e (function worse, possibly), but i did feel a difference between being t dominant and being e domjnant. i thought it was placebo but recently being on dht blockers which shouldve made me feel better by placebo i felt the churning was worse… because my testosterone isnt converted to dht, so its higher. idk. extreme anecdotal honscience i admit.
Yeah like I can cry easier at shows or w/e but thats it. Its mostly placebo
Trvke
it’s not placebo, but scientifically quantifiable. None the less, you not experiencing this doesn’t make you more or less “faketrans”.
but then why did i not experience it if its real? idgi
Probably wasn’t what you needed. It’s hard to say. Why doesn’t everyone get the same effects from all medication?
but if estrogen isnt what i need, then im faketrans, no?
Am I faketrans? Some cases in medication need a more surgical approach, like titration.
what if it‘s a ymmv thing or people who say they got mental changes just changed as a person or improved their life in some ways and attribute it all to hrt
that would fall under the its not real/its a placebo umbrella which is what i believe
my personal belief is that I don’t care of it‘s real or not tbh
