like, i am just as miserable and depressed and hate myself and my body as much as i did pre trooning. if not more in someways. the only reason im not absolutely 100% more miserable is because i lost nearly 100lbs and im happy about that at least.
but estrogen hasnt done anything for my mental state. there has been no clearing of mental fog. i dont have more energy, i dont feel more like myself, etc. i believe mental stuff like that is placebo personally, but everyone else doesnt seem to. but if its real like they say it is, then why didnt i get it?
the only explanations are that im faketrans or it isnt real. but if i say im faketrans and concede that fine, its not a placebo, i just get told that its complicated. or that i just dont have an unbiased view of myself or whatever. literally doing the evil psych thing of “i believe in X so if someone says Y that means theyre just not conscious that they really actually have X.” its stupid. i know myself better than any random trannies on the internet do. i experienced nothing when it comes to feeling mentally better. nothing at all. so which is it? am i faketrans, or is it a placebo?
in fairness theyre literally not real, the source for their existance is one single sneed website for figuring out if youre trans
which upon rereading it cites DAVID RAIMER as the source holy shit kms
again, i dont believe in it myself, but i wish people who did would at least be consistent and not result to freudian levels of mental gymnastics to say i just didnt notice or something
Yeah igi, I wish people wouldn’t do that when I say I didn’t used to be dysphoric before a certain age as well
oh yeah, thats another one thats really annoying too, i had 0 troon thoughts growing up, just general body image issues cause of weight
You mean The Gender Dysphoria Bible? I don’t really think there’s so much wrong with that tbh besides the honscience, very comprehensive for figuring out trannyness
Thats what I’m talking about