like, i am just as miserable and depressed and hate myself and my body as much as i did pre trooning. if not more in someways. the only reason im not absolutely 100% more miserable is because i lost nearly 100lbs and im happy about that at least.
but estrogen hasnt done anything for my mental state. there has been no clearing of mental fog. i dont have more energy, i dont feel more like myself, etc. i believe mental stuff like that is placebo personally, but everyone else doesnt seem to. but if its real like they say it is, then why didnt i get it?
the only explanations are that im faketrans or it isnt real. but if i say im faketrans and concede that fine, its not a placebo, i just get told that its complicated. or that i just dont have an unbiased view of myself or whatever. literally doing the evil psych thing of “i believe in X so if someone says Y that means theyre just not conscious that they really actually have X.” its stupid. i know myself better than any random trannies on the internet do. i experienced nothing when it comes to feeling mentally better. nothing at all. so which is it? am i faketrans, or is it a placebo?
but then why did i not experience it if its real? idgi
Probably wasn’t what you needed. It’s hard to say. Why doesn’t everyone get the same effects from all medication?
but if estrogen isnt what i need, then im faketrans, no?
Am I faketrans? Some cases in medication need a more surgical approach, like titration.