I have trouble being authentic so i struggle making friends. I have considered hrt repping but it will come out at some point and i am not ready for it. I wont ever be. I would be discarded by the only people in my life.

I just cant see myself happy as a hon either. Itll ruin my ability ro rep too, so leave me with only a disgraceful suicide then. Its easier to rep.

Looks like sneako

Yeah zone :(

No dysphoria, didnt think about my gender much if at all. I wanted to be a femboy bc i was a faggot but that was it. But then i found 4t4 and the effects of hrt and transtimelines and my brain latched on and it wont leave me tf alone !! It sucks…

Hahaha i was doomscrolling a few minutes ago and then i had an ephiphany. And i rushed to look over at my measurements and realised that i messed it up. Its because i used to think it was by breadth, so i wrote it as 1.4 something; so i measured it today by breadth mistakenly bc i was trying to update the old one without realising, and doomed because it became 1.5. I had written my actual shr underneath in my list but much smaller so i didnt notice lol Thank you though:), and yes im retarded (^- ) anyway this post is embarassing now i think il delete it

thats the most accurate way to measure breadth, otherwise itll be off

The moment i found 4tran4 and hrt was the moment my life ended, theres no winning situation. Not trutrans enough to desperately need hrt, but still dysphoric enough for it to be like a parasite taking up my thoughts. I want hrt to be the fix in my life but im half sure that itll just make things worse. Fmsftl

oh it shows 100% next to the smiley face on the post so i thought that meant only upcummies, fuck them anyway if they did

downcummied who? me?

I could never tbhon, way too early, but hopefully you will enjoy it and the people will be chill

Jfc 5am, good luck tho !

Off with your head ! jk

Lmk when you figure it out, i need to know too

Maybe, idk if i have it

Probably same, sometimes i see myself and i just think wtf i should die rn, maybe my brain knows im too weak to handle the truth so it distorts my perception to keep me alive

I wonder if most people simply feel more confident in their identity so dont relate much. I would post a similar sentiment if i could express myself better.

Waow most relatable shit ive ever read on here

Thanks, and same, ive seen quite a lot of cool data visualizations so i definitely have to step up my game too! Good luck to both of us lol nice to have met another tracker!

22000 rows !! I keep track of my japanese learning and i only have around 500 rows (just over a year), and its already a pain scrolling up and down. I cant imagine 22k lol your graph is much prettier than mine but im lazy af so ignore the looks :d

How to smile genuinely ? :) is the closest but youre right its kinda forced