• If I transition openly -> Abuse until Detransition
  • If I transition secretly -> Abuse just later on
  • If I leave my family -> Family suicide
  • if I repress -> 50 years of suffering
  • if I do conversion therapy -> suicide
  • if I kill myself now -> Family suicide
  • If I let them die -> suicide by guilt

This kind of situation cannot be solved…

The only option would be for my family to suddenly accept me being trans… which won’t ever happen.

And to all of you who say my family won’t kill themselves… they’ve already de facto did attempt to just waste away and die when I first ran away…

There is no solution… there is no hope…

  • Lils
    5·
    10 days ago

    I’m sorry, I understand this is an unwinnable situation to be in, but at a certain point you have to choose yourself.

    • DysphoriaGirlOP
      1·
      10 days ago

      Is it better to choose myself and let four people die or to sacrifice myself to save four people… kind of a trolly problem

          • rank1bedrotter
            3·
            10 days ago

            They clearly are tho. If they’re not respecting you and threatening suicide to “keep you in line” or whatever they’re literally doing it out of malice

            • four_walls_of_love
              3·
              10 days ago

              yea i cant see any way that isn’t malicious

              im troon “ok imma off myself” jk “ok i change my mind”

              like girl come tf on theyre not your friends

              • DysphoriaGirlOP
                1·
                10 days ago

                The thing is… with them there is no… “Jk”… they will do it…

                • four_walls_of_love
                  1·
                  10 days ago

                  the jk is u

                  im a troon- u

                  imma merk myself-your fam

                  jk-u

                  i live- your fam

                  kinda malicious, also if im not intruding what makes u think they will actually go full jones town if u run for the hills

                  • DysphoriaGirlOP
                    2·
                    10 days ago

                    Because when I once went away… my family collapsed into a depressive spiral, my mother started having night terrors, waking up screaming in the night, searching the streets for me, being in pain, stopped eating, lost 20kg, stopped leaving the bed, ended up suicidal… same thing for my father who ended up in the hospital from a heart attack due to stress and his deteriorating health due to the depression.

                    So yeah… if I leave, they will die…

            • DysphoriaGirlOP
              1·
              10 days ago

              They are not threatening it… they are doing it the moment I leave again… also they are reacting like this out of severe desperation because they can’t deal with me not being there…

                • DysphoriaGirlOP
                  1·
                  10 days ago

                  It’s not their choice to mentally break apart… they are simply falling into suicidal depression because I disappeared…