my dysphoria is too bad everything reminds me that i will never be a real woman and ill never be able to get surgery so it wont get better its all i can think about anymore every waking moment is spent fantasizing about my suicide
no :‹
also, you are literally such a real woman that you passed before starting E… 💔
that doesnt make me a real woman besides all youve ever seen of me is very curated i look way worse in real life i dont even know if surgery would fix it i think im just permanently a man
i mean, you also just have the personality of a woman, so you’re still a real woman… and, girl, there’s just literally no way you’re permafucked. like, there are limits to how much you can manipulate a photo…
its not even about my appearance really im just permanently ruined by being born a man
i often feel the same way about myself, but i just don’t really think it’s true… like, we’re women who were born with a fucked-up disorder of sexual development. it doesn’t make us any less of a woman, even if we have to work much harder than everyone else for others to also recognize that fact :[
it doesnt matter how hard i work im going to be miserable for the rest of my life i dont think theres anything i can do that will fix this
i think there are some things that’ll hurt forever, yea. the dypsphoria will never fully disappear no matter what we do. in a way, i think it’s similar to losing someone one loves in the sense that it’ll never really “get better”; the person will never return from the dead. but, with time and effort, we learn to live alongside the pain, work around it, maybe even find ways to let it drive us forward. we’ll never be free from the pain, and i know the depression makes it seem completely fucking impossible right now, but there’s no doubt in my mind that we’ll find ways to live good lives despite it…
thank you for talking to me i wish i could believe that it was possible to have a good life
I know how intense this can feel, but have you ever felt this way before? Do you remember the moments that come after, where you think “I’m really glad I didn’t do it”? I’ve found that I always end up thinking that, and I hope you give yourself a chance to think it too
i have never once thought “im glad i didnt do it”
I’m sorry, I can imagine it’s very hard to keep going with it being unrelenting. It took a while for me to find any moments, so I don’t think this means they’re not coming. But I know that doesn’t mean much right now. This feeling can be so severe. It’s just sad to see it happening to you, like the injustice of it all, because of how good you are to everyone here. But it’s not fair to say that you have to fix the injustice. I’m just really sorry this is happening to you, and I hope you are able to see this moment thru to its end.
im not going to die right now i have to go to work i have to push the boulder up the hill
Every moment there is someone else who wants to die. Even those who previously encouraged people to live post something suicidal the very next week. It’s really scary…
I really hope you don’t do it.
thats just the nature of this place kinda
please don’t.
it feels kind of inevitable
PLS DONT PLSPLS
i really would like to though
i really understand the feeling but like. idk. you shouldnt die :(
i appreciate you i wish there was like some reason for me to think that things would get better but they just never will
I hope you don’t I’m sorry
