my dysphoria is too bad everything reminds me that i will never be a real woman and ill never be able to get surgery so it wont get better its all i can think about anymore every waking moment is spent fantasizing about my suicide

  • Allie
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    12 hours ago

    I’m sorry, I can imagine it’s very hard to keep going with it being unrelenting. It took a while for me to find any moments, so I don’t think this means they’re not coming. But I know that doesn’t mean much right now. This feeling can be so severe. It’s just sad to see it happening to you, like the injustice of it all, because of how good you are to everyone here. But it’s not fair to say that you have to fix the injustice. I’m just really sorry this is happening to you, and I hope you are able to see this moment thru to its end.

    • sophiaOP
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      12 hours ago

      im not going to die right now i have to go to work i have to push the boulder up the hill