Like I mean seriously… I fucking hate myself that I didn’t know early and will never accept myself as trans or transition because of that. I used to be an extremely religiously zealous and anti-lgbtq chud and nobody here seems to have had the same experience cause you all seemingly were already gay little faggots or troons at 16y old and simply were to dumb or didn’t know about DIY back then. But me?
No, I was straight. I was cis. Then it all broke apart. Isn’t there anybody who has a similar experience and knows how that feels and has the same doubts due to not knowing they were trans at an early age and that used to be like extremely transphobic!
I can’t be the only one… I’m so lonely and hurt
I was anti trans anti lgbt cis autistic scum at 14-15?. Mostly cause of society and the internet + I liked to troll online. I don’t think that I actually took it seriously tho. Then I found out I was bisexual at like 15? Later on also finding out that I’m a “femboy” + more woke stuff. Small ideation turned into dysphoria related to height, face and hair, it slowly started to morph and increase in severity over the next 2.5 years. From almost nonexistent-monthly-weekly-daily, going on tttt was the breaking point. Happened 3-4 months ago. Kind of like an exponential growth. Everything I said is prob 50% wrong, my memory is extremely shit.
Wish I had a genuine femboy phase but nevertheless… I couldnt ever have pulled that off, but I did mentally femboycope for a while…
My femboy phase was mostly mental either way, it was more of a reflection of myself. I only cross dressed a couple of times in my room, and started to grow my hair out. I became more comfortable with being feminine and started to desire femininity. I femboycoped, not femboyphased, my environment wouldn’t let me. I remember asking myself if I’m trans or just a femboy and I went with the second option due to my male socialization.