I just went on /lgbt/ and what if I am just insane… that place seems more honest about it… about ugliness, messed up sexuality, feeling sick, being an incels trying to cope, feeling like freaks… its a place where the idea that being trans is actually something real isn’t accepted compared with here…

And it makes me ask myself… what if they are right?

What if I’m just a male incel with delusions, a messed up sexuality, social retardation, too much internet access to early, trauma and mental illness…

Am I actually trans, is being trans even a thing? Besides passoids, transness is just ugly, always… at least thats what people say…

Lookism is also important, maybe the most important thing… if you are not pretty… you don’t deserve love

Right?

  • giuli9
    3·
    11 hours ago

    Would you be willing to apply those thoughts to the people here too?

    • DysphoriaGirlOP
      1·
      11 hours ago

      Why wouldn’t you all apply them to yourself… because if you feel like you wouldn’t… then you are all just more pure than me… then yes you al maybe are really trans but me… I’m not even a person… I’m not even a full human being.

      • giuli9
        2·
        11 hours ago

        No i mean would you also think the same about the people here? If you believe being trans is a gross fetish or something, do you think everyone else here is a gross fetishist too? Or only you? Because then you’re not following through with that belief, you only think that way to hate yourself

        • DysphoriaGirlOP
          1·
          11 hours ago

          I believe that there are good people and bad people and maybe most people here are good… but I don’t feel like I’m good…

          Idk… maybe… I used to believe people don’t know what’s best for them… we often don’t know what’s good for us, right… so maybe we all need help…

          I don’t feel diagsutg towards anybody here… maybe we just need help or therapy. I feel empathy, sadness

          I just don’t feel okay… the world doesn’t make sense to me… things aren’t stable

          • giuli9
            2·
            11 hours ago

            Unless your personal circumstances make it impossible you just need to get on hrt girl 😭 this is starting to feel like learned helplessness, you doom here and get to make up excuses as to why you shouldn’t transition, you need to get over yourself and give yourself a chance at life

            • DysphoriaGirlOP
              1·
              11 hours ago

              I just need it all to be justified, legitimate, for the world to make sense again, it used to make sense but now it’s all just incomprehensible

            • DysphoriaGirlOP
              1·
              11 hours ago

              I don’t want a chance at life… I want it to stop… I’m sorry… I’m a bad person… I’m very sorry.

              • giuli9
                3·
                11 hours ago

                If you want to die you might as well try hrt you have LITERALLY NOTHING to lose then. But in the end it’s still up to you, no one can force you to do the right thing. It’s sad to watch you like this though

                  • giuli9
                    1·
                    10 hours ago

                    Don’t apologize, change something, otherwise it doesn’t mean much