I just went on /lgbt/ and what if I am just insane… that place seems more honest about it… about ugliness, messed up sexuality, feeling sick, being an incels trying to cope, feeling like freaks… its a place where the idea that being trans is actually something real isn’t accepted compared with here…

And it makes me ask myself… what if they are right?

What if I’m just a male incel with delusions, a messed up sexuality, social retardation, too much internet access to early, trauma and mental illness…

Am I actually trans, is being trans even a thing? Besides passoids, transness is just ugly, always… at least thats what people say…

Lookism is also important, maybe the most important thing… if you are not pretty… you don’t deserve love

Right?

  • DysphoriaGirlOP
    1·
    11 hours ago

    I don’t want a chance at life… I want it to stop… I’m sorry… I’m a bad person… I’m very sorry.

    • giuli9
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      11 hours ago

      If you want to die you might as well try hrt you have LITERALLY NOTHING to lose then. But in the end it’s still up to you, no one can force you to do the right thing. It’s sad to watch you like this though

        • giuli9
          1·
          10 hours ago

          Don’t apologize, change something, otherwise it doesn’t mean much

          • DysphoriaGirlOP
            1·
            10 hours ago

            I’ve tried but yet I’m still this way… I’ve lost friends over being this way and yet I do it again and again… I’m just a horrible person who likes to be miserable

            • giuli9
              2·
              10 hours ago

              Then keep trying. You can probably order hrt rn even. You can’t change if you justify it as something inherent to your

              • DysphoriaGirlOP
                1·
                10 hours ago

                But I can’t justify it as something inherent to me… that’s the whole issue here!

                • giuli9
                  2·
                  10 hours ago

                  I feel like you’re doing that by saying you’re a „horrible person who likes to be miserable“. But if you don’t think you habe to be this way then stop and change you can do it. You’re too used to your misery i feel like, too comfortable in it

                  • DysphoriaGirlOP
                    1·
                    10 hours ago

                    Misery is what I know… it’s all I am and have been for most of my life… I’ve been obsessed with my suffering and understanding it for years.

                    It’s so deeply engrained, I can’t escape it