I just went on /lgbt/ and what if I am just insane… that place seems more honest about it… about ugliness, messed up sexuality, feeling sick, being an incels trying to cope, feeling like freaks… its a place where the idea that being trans is actually something real isn’t accepted compared with here…

And it makes me ask myself… what if they are right?

What if I’m just a male incel with delusions, a messed up sexuality, social retardation, too much internet access to early, trauma and mental illness…

Am I actually trans, is being trans even a thing? Besides passoids, transness is just ugly, always… at least thats what people say…

Lookism is also important, maybe the most important thing… if you are not pretty… you don’t deserve love

Right?

  • giuli9
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    11 hours ago

    No i mean would you also think the same about the people here? If you believe being trans is a gross fetish or something, do you think everyone else here is a gross fetishist too? Or only you? Because then you’re not following through with that belief, you only think that way to hate yourself

    • DysphoriaGirlOP
      1·
      11 hours ago

      I believe that there are good people and bad people and maybe most people here are good… but I don’t feel like I’m good…

      Idk… maybe… I used to believe people don’t know what’s best for them… we often don’t know what’s good for us, right… so maybe we all need help…

      I don’t feel diagsutg towards anybody here… maybe we just need help or therapy. I feel empathy, sadness

      I just don’t feel okay… the world doesn’t make sense to me… things aren’t stable

      • giuli9
        2·
        11 hours ago

        Unless your personal circumstances make it impossible you just need to get on hrt girl 😭 this is starting to feel like learned helplessness, you doom here and get to make up excuses as to why you shouldn’t transition, you need to get over yourself and give yourself a chance at life

        • DysphoriaGirlOP
          1·
          11 hours ago

          I just need it all to be justified, legitimate, for the world to make sense again, it used to make sense but now it’s all just incomprehensible

        • DysphoriaGirlOP
          1·
          11 hours ago

          I don’t want a chance at life… I want it to stop… I’m sorry… I’m a bad person… I’m very sorry.

          • giuli9
            3·
            11 hours ago

            If you want to die you might as well try hrt you have LITERALLY NOTHING to lose then. But in the end it’s still up to you, no one can force you to do the right thing. It’s sad to watch you like this though

              • giuli9
                1·
                10 hours ago

                Don’t apologize, change something, otherwise it doesn’t mean much

                • DysphoriaGirlOP
                  1·
                  10 hours ago

                  I’ve tried but yet I’m still this way… I’ve lost friends over being this way and yet I do it again and again… I’m just a horrible person who likes to be miserable

                  • giuli9
                    2·
                    10 hours ago

                    Then keep trying. You can probably order hrt rn even. You can’t change if you justify it as something inherent to your