Then somedays I feel like it was a stupid choice to start transitioning because of how bad I look. But then a few hours later or the next day I’m thinking maybe I over reacted because I don’t look as bad as I thought, that I do have a good base, that I just need to keep losing weight and some makeup I could pass and be considered conventionally pretty. Then a while later it’ll be like I switched back to be horrible to look at. Kinda like a loop.

Anybody else struggle with this or is just like straight dooming all the time?

  • Juvie032
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    5 days ago

    Yeagh… honestly I feel like my brainworms have gotten worse but I know it’s just me not dissociating 95% of the time. As I’m passing BETTER I feel like it allows me the room to feel those feelings. It’s a process

    • LobotomyCandidateOP
      2·
      5 days ago

      I feel like thats probably what it is, transitioning has led to less disassociation, then with starting to pass better then brain just like over exaggerates the features I feel dysphoric about, which leads to me being able to know what to correct/fix.