I’m gonna prove to you all that I’m a subhuman AGP faketrans pervert who doesn’t deserve to transition…
Honeslty I would love for you all to make me kill myself after me confessing all this so that I never get the chance to become a rapehon OpticsSuperNuke…
Here’s my confession…
- Porn addiction starting with 11y old…
- Female Masturbation, Lesbian porn etc…
- Desensitization and escalation occurred…
- Started feeling violated and forced to do it…
- At times was even bleeding and in bad pain…
- Tried stopping over and over again but failed…
- Started to hate my penis and wanted it gone…
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- Started being envious of women’s “pleasure”…
- Wished I was a hermaphrodite for sex once…
- Wanted to masturbate “like a woman”…
- Started imagining myself as a lesbian…
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- Learned the term AGP and shut it down…
- Escaped back into very bad hetero porn…
- Bigoted right wing phase full of hatred…
- Later after figuring out I’m bisexual…
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- Starting to kineq question my gender…
- Sexually crossdressed twice (I need to rope)
- Then my egg cracked and I very depressed
- Fell into kind of sexual madness for a week
- Tried masturbatint “like a woman”… felt bad
- Was in a lot of anguish and felt so ashamed
- Felt I was trying to fuck the pain away…
- Since then never did that stuff again
- Simply fell back into the usual routine .
So… wouldn’t you all agree… I am definelty AGP…
I deserve the most violent death imaginable.
You’re not disgusting… the same laws don’t apply to you… I knew it was wrong… I knew it was sinful… you weren’t raised that way and so you’re partly exempt from thr fault of your bad actions.
Also… even if we ignore that… you’re probably just generally a better person and probably weren’t as monstrous as I am with regards to sexual compulsion
This is just exhausting. Two times sexually cross-dressing? I did it more, when I was 10. And why tf would the same rules not apply to me that doesn’t even make sense. Either call me a sissy cross-dresser or confront your trauma and try to come to terms with it. I feel similar shame in this regard, but trust me when I say it gets better when you’re on e.
Are you closer to getting estradiol than you were last week? If not I might have to start bullying you
I just want to feel pure and good again… it hurts so much… I just want my lost innocence back… I just want to not be filthy and so utterly unlovable… my skin feels dirty… I just feel so unlovable… I just wish I was pure again instead of a sexual creature… sexuality has always just been pain for me.
How do I even beginn to heal this. I can’t. All I need is to abstain… be in control… Reduce it and controll it all… but I fail always… and have been failing for years without relief… it won’t stop.
I’m just in so much pain
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Hint: it starts with an e
If you get on e your body will stop raping itself. My sex drive went down A LOT and I’m very happy with it.
As for the first paragraph, that’s a whole lot of shame and religious trauma that’s going to take a long time to get past. First you need to get on e. Then you need to get a therapist that knows how to deal with religious trauma.
I guess you’re right… sigh :*(
I’m sorry… I know im annoying… please dont hate me for my pain… I just feel bad