I’m gonna prove to you all that I’m a subhuman AGP faketrans pervert who doesn’t deserve to transition…
Honeslty I would love for you all to make me kill myself after me confessing all this so that I never get the chance to become a rapehon OpticsSuperNuke…
Here’s my confession…
- Porn addiction starting with 11y old…
- Female Masturbation, Lesbian porn etc…
- Desensitization and escalation occurred…
- Started feeling violated and forced to do it…
- At times was even bleeding and in bad pain…
- Tried stopping over and over again but failed…
- Started to hate my penis and wanted it gone…
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- Started being envious of women’s “pleasure”…
- Wished I was a hermaphrodite for sex once…
- Wanted to masturbate “like a woman”…
- Started imagining myself as a lesbian…
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- Learned the term AGP and shut it down…
- Escaped back into very bad hetero porn…
- Bigoted right wing phase full of hatred…
- Later after figuring out I’m bisexual…
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- Starting to kineq question my gender…
- Sexually crossdressed twice (I need to rope)
- Then my egg cracked and I very depressed
- Fell into kind of sexual madness for a week
- Tried masturbatint “like a woman”… felt bad
- Was in a lot of anguish and felt so ashamed
- Felt I was trying to fuck the pain away…
- Since then never did that stuff again
- Simply fell back into the usual routine .
So… wouldn’t you all agree… I am definelty AGP…
I deserve the most violent death imaginable.
This is just exhausting. Two times sexually cross-dressing? I did it more, when I was 10. And why tf would the same rules not apply to me that doesn’t even make sense. Either call me a sissy cross-dresser or confront your trauma and try to come to terms with it. I feel similar shame in this regard, but trust me when I say it gets better when you’re on e.
Are you closer to getting estradiol than you were last week? If not I might have to start bullying you
I just want to feel pure and good again… it hurts so much… I just want my lost innocence back… I just want to not be filthy and so utterly unlovable… my skin feels dirty… I just feel so unlovable… I just wish I was pure again instead of a sexual creature… sexuality has always just been pain for me.
How do I even beginn to heal this. I can’t. All I need is to abstain… be in control… Reduce it and controll it all… but I fail always… and have been failing for years without relief… it won’t stop.
I’m just in so much pain
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Hint: it starts with an e
If you get on e your body will stop raping itself. My sex drive went down A LOT and I’m very happy with it.
As for the first paragraph, that’s a whole lot of shame and religious trauma that’s going to take a long time to get past. First you need to get on e. Then you need to get a therapist that knows how to deal with religious trauma.
I guess you’re right… sigh :*(
I’m sorry… I know im annoying… please dont hate me for my pain… I just feel bad