I’m gonna prove to you all that I’m a subhuman AGP faketrans pervert who doesn’t deserve to transition…
Honeslty I would love for you all to make me kill myself after me confessing all this so that I never get the chance to become a rapehon OpticsSuperNuke…
Here’s my confession…
- Porn addiction starting with 11y old…
- Female Masturbation, Lesbian porn etc…
- Desensitization and escalation occurred…
- Started feeling violated and forced to do it…
- At times was even bleeding and in bad pain…
- Tried stopping over and over again but failed…
- Started to hate my penis and wanted it gone…
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- Started being envious of women’s “pleasure”…
- Wished I was a hermaphrodite for sex once…
- Wanted to masturbate “like a woman”…
- Started imagining myself as a lesbian…
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- Learned the term AGP and shut it down…
- Escaped back into very bad hetero porn…
- Bigoted right wing phase full of hatred…
- Later after figuring out I’m bisexual…
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- Starting to kineq question my gender…
- Sexually crossdressed twice (I need to rope)
- Then my egg cracked and I very depressed
- Fell into kind of sexual madness for a week
- Tried masturbatint “like a woman”… felt bad
- Was in a lot of anguish and felt so ashamed
- Felt I was trying to fuck the pain away…
- Since then never did that stuff again
- Simply fell back into the usual routine .
So… wouldn’t you all agree… I am definelty AGP…
I deserve the most violent death imaginable.
“proof against me”
“Than we are both doomed”
You even type like a really self hating Jane Eyre; get your Victorian woman’s ass to a clinic and seek the map out of this dark forest that you’re feeling trapped in
If I were actually prudish… I would have stayed pure… I have no real shame to be honest… if I had real shame, I wouldn’t be like this… I would have remained pure
Incorrect, the machine that is your body has been running on fuel it wasn’t designed for,
There are 2 lane roads in your brain that testosterone is sending a fleet of Mack trucks down and whole assed highways that have never been paved-
Have you noticed that every single woman who has responded to you has expressed something very similar?
Trust us, silencing that ever present agitator in your endocrine system will feel right
And if it doesn’t you have like 4 weeks before most permanent tissue changes take place-
So why not just try?
But there are men who are able to deal with their testosterone powered sexuality without being as broken as me, so if I need to essentially shut down that highway and silence it, doesn’t that further proof that I’m just broken and instead should just learn to be more sexually disciplines and controll it like all the other male guys do.
And yeah I might not want to be a man but effectively that’s what I am right now and probably will always be, no matter what…
But yk my point is… if I can’t deal with the Testosterone sexuality highway while others can… isn’t it then just a personal failing… and also other learn to control it without essentially chemically castrating themselves… I feel like a failed male.
Your answer is inherent to the very first sentence you wrote: “There are men who…”
Their little 2 lane roads are 6 lane highways, so when those Mack trucks testosterone travels through their brain it doesn’t create the same type of pressure and cacophonous traffic jams, where you are never able to clear the road.
Sex is not an impure thing of itself, it’s a very human thing, it might be the most ubiquitously human thing, you developed an addiction and that feels like shit ; I know a thing or two about addictions and willpower is only half the game- I had to put as many barriers between me and my source as I could - he’ll if I went home every day and there was Oxys on my table I dont think my willpower would be enough- you gotta start by giving yourself some grace and being realistic with stuff like that- your addiction just happens to be available 24/7 in unlimited amounts via the device in your hand.
I just feel so ugly and disgusting… I’m sorry… I’m sorry that I’m perverted and that I am a freak…