I genuinely feel at times that I’m some ghost that possessed this body rather than it’s me. I don’t see young me as me in any aspect. Like my tranny soul stole the body of a young girl. Idk I’m sure someone will say I might have some disorder or some shit
Yes it feels like i can separate my life into distinct segments that each belong to a very different person. I know that’s not true and i‘m not actually that different (i think) but still. And it feels like it’s happened more than once for me
i cant remember my childhood much, (0-9ish) but i feel im the same person i was in adolescence.
troon thoughts didnt even start until i was 18, but the continuous suicide ideation from age 10 until the present gives me enough continuity to feel a stable sense of self really
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i freak out when ppl remember me about things we have done together/ive said even just 1 year ago. bc idk who theyre talking about. ik its supposed to be me but i cant connect with that
sometimes i want to go back to before i attained this trans delusion when i was just a kid and things felt safe in their wrongness instead of unsafe. idk if that makes any sense tho. i have continuity of experience i think though so im still the same person i was back then even though i don’t like it now. im disconnected from how i didn’t use to feel shattered into pieces.
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i cant really remember anything pre-14y, from that time onward its just distant memories of someone who isn’t me. even just going a year back it all feels so unreal it might just have been someone else. it will be called a disorder but i just think its normal life for us trannies







