I think maybe being around the board and 4tran could have fucked me over since everyone is so much younger than me. Being 25 I think in most places online is seen as not terribly old for transition while here I see people doom about being as young as 16 and starting HRT. Not making a comment on others peoples right to doom.
I just feel like the perfect middle point of not being able to accept I’m old and fucked then becoming able to relate to other places online or being young enough I would be able to logically feel confident that I can transition into something not disgusting. Or maybe I am old and fucked then I’m just trying to logically escape being that by believing I’m in the middle.
You shouldn’t really doom about appearing male while pre-hrt that’s the whole point of taking it if people were able to look female pre-hrt why would we get on it. It’s a reality that essentially everyone has some amount of facial hair going in it sounds like you don’t have too much which is a great thing. Basically everyone has an Adams apple going in if it’s severe enough it can get shaved down the line. You absolutely can expect hip growth over the next 5 or so years. At your age hips have not fused unlike the other bones in your body. Also do not doom over your posture you can literally just change that if you think it’s bad it’s not some immutable shape of your body.
I don’t really know what to say about height it’s one of the sticking points for a lot of people that they say they can’t pass based on. You are taller however your not extremely tall I wouldn’t expect it to get fully in your way of passing. Doom if you need to online but don’t let it get in the way of living your life you are young and you have a great opportunity ahead of you right now to be able to live your life as you see it.
Okay. I’m just kinda scared. Another user saw my face and said that it’s not that bad, but I’d need ffs mainly for my nose cause it makes my brow bone look bad which it isn’t. They said I’d be a semi passoid with HRT and presentation face wise. So I’m hopeful it’ll be okay. I’m worried about how people are going to accept/perceive me in Poland. My parents don’t even suspect anything. I’ll have to boymode for 1.5 years before going to uni.
I don’t have any advice for how people will perceive you I’m from the US. I’m terrified as well I don’t think there is a way around the fear. Starting this young if you get FFS there is probably a good chance you can pass pretty well especially if someone said you could become a semipassoid with just hrt and only said you might need your nose done. I’m going to be unable to present as anything but male for a while as well something like 1 1/2 or 2 years the prospect sucks.
Focus on your studies and start building your life maybe get a job in the meantime to start to save up. Keep yourself busy and keep going outside staying inside is not good for anyone. Stay as positive as you can although I know how hard that is and it’s hypocritical of me to tell you to do that.