I think maybe being around the board and 4tran could have fucked me over since everyone is so much younger than me. Being 25 I think in most places online is seen as not terribly old for transition while here I see people doom about being as young as 16 and starting HRT. Not making a comment on others peoples right to doom.

I just feel like the perfect middle point of not being able to accept I’m old and fucked then becoming able to relate to other places online or being young enough I would be able to logically feel confident that I can transition into something not disgusting. Or maybe I am old and fucked then I’m just trying to logically escape being that by believing I’m in the middle.

  • Fuwarei
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    17 days ago

    Okay. I’m just kinda scared. Another user saw my face and said that it’s not that bad, but I’d need ffs mainly for my nose cause it makes my brow bone look bad which it isn’t. They said I’d be a semi passoid with HRT and presentation face wise. So I’m hopeful it’ll be okay. I’m worried about how people are going to accept/perceive me in Poland. My parents don’t even suspect anything. I’ll have to boymode for 1.5 years before going to uni.

    • ebrickhonOP
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      16 days ago

      I don’t have any advice for how people will perceive you I’m from the US. I’m terrified as well I don’t think there is a way around the fear. Starting this young if you get FFS there is probably a good chance you can pass pretty well especially if someone said you could become a semipassoid with just hrt and only said you might need your nose done. I’m going to be unable to present as anything but male for a while as well something like 1 1/2 or 2 years the prospect sucks.

      Focus on your studies and start building your life maybe get a job in the meantime to start to save up. Keep yourself busy and keep going outside staying inside is not good for anyone. Stay as positive as you can although I know how hard that is and it’s hypocritical of me to tell you to do that.