when i was 13, i would fantasize about blasting komm susser tod from my phone speakers and jumping in front of a subway and then hearing the “tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling doooowwn…” repeat from further and further away as i lay there as a bloody pulp on the subway tracks and everyone’s screaming and staring in horror
How long have you been repping for?
First AGP thoughts at 15y old. Realized I am bisexual at 17y old. Reperative therapy since then. Repress. Accept I am bisexual at 18y old. Gender questioning at 18y old. Crossdress once sexually. Shame. Repress. Outed by parents at 18y old. Fleeing home to a queer shelter. Breakdown and realizing I’m trans at 19y old. ROGD develops. Now about a year of conscious repping and daily obessional thoughts about gender.
Yeah very similar to me. But if it has been a year without change, then do you really expect it to change on its own? That’s foolish. If you really want to cure yourself you must leave this place right now, cut off all of trans media and live a cis life. If you don’t, that undeniably means you’re a troon stupid enough to rep and live in misery. Don’t validate your self directed transphobia by using religion.
I can’t leave because I’m weak and a bad person and because I am empty inside and narcisstically jump from identity to identity over the years. First smart boy, wannabe scientist, then wannabe artists, wannabe musicia, then religious pious boy, wannabe scholar, then wannabe conservative intellectual, then bisexual leftist, now wamnabe tranny. Because the reality is that I have no identity, no soul.
I’m not leaving because I’m a bad person. That’s all. It doesn’t prove anything at all
Why the hell are you just like me? Other than the religion stuff I’ve been kind of going through the same identities, but they didn’t leave, they assimilated.
You’re not leaving because you’re a troon. What makes you a bad person? You’re just trying to deny yourself I’m tired of your whining. Take your pills Alice or rep for a bit untill your mind corrodes so much you John 50.
Please don’t be angry with me. I’m sorry.
I just… feel dead
Fembrained af
More BPD-brained…
I think I’m a bad person because of I’ve done a lot of things that are sinful… like having a bad sexuality, being angry and breaking things, being ungrateful, cursing, me not respecting peoples’ emotional boundaries, being lazy etc
Sexuality can’t be bad if consensual, it is understandable that a mentally suffering person will cause some suffering to others, most people already do stuff like you do. Please just troon out. If you don’t I hope they ban you, reppers shouldn’t be welcome here.