i often hear people say starting HRT was incredibly exciting & gave them a reason to live. i cant really relate.

i was a normal, mildly depressed, functional adult. my life was a better- it felt better. everyday didnt hurt so much, life just felt vaguely meaningless outside of my one passion.

as it currently stands, my mental state has only gotten worse. this really doesnt seem normal for many trannies.

i may just still be grieving and accepting the fact ill have to be some misshapen abomination. im not sure.

  • j3nOP
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    7 days ago

    this sounds very reasonable. my emotions used to be pretty muted. it made being really sad on average feel manageable. i had apathy.

    now im aware of the root cause of my body issues and my emotions are very intense; its a recipe for absolute disaster honestly.

    thank you for the reassurance. i cant imagine a future where i age as a man, so its still for the best at the end of the day. even if i hate every second of this.