Here’s a picture of somebody who kinda looks like me. Below you will find calcifications/corrections with regards to my actual facial appearance:

  • My skin tone is more fair (Fritzpatrick 3-4)

  • My hair is more wavy and frizzy (worse)

  • My face and nose is less in width

  • My midface is a little longer

  • My jaw is stronger by A Lot!

  • My ears are bigger than his

  • My nose is a little less hooked

  • My nostrils aren’t as flared

  • My lips are smaller than his

  • My teeth are not all straight

  • I have visible beard shadow

  • I am definelty older than him

  • I am skinner (fet distribution)

  • I don’t give of chuddy vibes

Now here are my body measurements:

  • Height 173cm (bad posture)

  • Weight 58kg (low body fat%)

  • Shoe size 42 (european men’s)

  • Bideltoid width 44cm

  • Shoulder circumference 96cm

  • Ribcage circumference (sternum level) 78cm

  • Waist circumference (umbilical level) 74cm

  • Waist circumference (above umbilical) 71cm

  • Full hip circumference (widest point) 83cm

< Rotated ribcage (uneven, not level, see image) >

Please give me advise on what I should do now. What are my chances of passing? Is it over for me?

  • DysphoriaGirlOP
    2·
    10 days ago

    But how do I know I have it? Couldn’t all this simply be mentally illness or dissatisfaction with life. Like I can’t prove dysphoria to myself. I don’t idk scream and cry when looking at the mirror. For me, I just generally feel numb all the time. And ugly and worthless and all that

    • RtHonAlice
      3·
      10 days ago

      But how do I know I have it?

      By thinking about it constantly, just like you are doing right now. That’s a crucial part of it. You don’t just forget it, it’s with you, always. The being numb part is a coping mechanism to deal with it somehow, the screaming and crying will come later with acceptance. And it WILL come. The question is only how long you allowed testosterone to rape your body until it happens because you thought “but mayyybe there’s a way out of this”. There isn’t. You can thank me later.

      • DysphoriaGirlOP
        1·
        10 days ago

        But if I accept it I’ll suffer and be hurt… My family will hurt, people will hurt me. I am not strong enough for all of this

        • RtHonAlice
          3·
          10 days ago

          Boymoding is a possibility. I’m doing it too and it is still a LOT better than repping.

          • DysphoriaGirlOP
            1·
            10 days ago

            But I can’t hide it from my family, especially not breast development. And if they find out then I’m literally going to die. I am afraid of that so much!

            • RtHonAlice
              4·
              10 days ago

              Gain some weight and blame the breast development on that. You can lose weight later, you can’t lose bone later. Oestrogen isn’t magic girl juice, the changes are usually subtle. Cissoids are dense and don’t notice the change, especially if they see you every day because it’s very gradual. Cissoids also simply don’t think about tranners constantly. You do. Because you are trans. Which is why you should take your pills.

              Yes, in the long term you should get away from your family, but at the moment preventing further masculinisation is your top priority. If you are hoping for anybody here to tell you your case isn’t clear and you’re faketrans I have bad news for you. Nobody will because it is an obvious case. Do it.

              • rank1bedrotter
                2·
                10 days ago

                This, also worst case you can just wear like a binder or something I guess.

                • DysphoriaGirlOP
                  1·
                  10 days ago

                  Doesn’t a binder idk damage tissue and wouldn’t it also hinder good development. I don’t want to make my boobs develop badly.

                  • rank1bedrotter
                    2·
                    10 days ago

                    Yeah but I’m saying worst case scenario. Also letting t fuck up your ribcage more will be worse than that anyways so

                • RtHonAlice
                  2·
                  10 days ago

                  Thinking you’re faketrans is in fact very trans and an attempt to justify repping.

                  • DysphoriaGirlOP
                    1·
                    10 days ago

                    But thats like just your opinion sis… like totally unfalsifiable… like… idk… I’m tired… so tired 😭

                    But yk… recognized late, got AGP, am weird, got borderline, am failed man, sex addict, weirdo, bisexual, very masculine, no signs in childhood.

                    Isn’t that enough proof against me???

              • DysphoriaGirlOP
                1·
                10 days ago

                But they already know I’m queer and my mom already suspects I am trans because stupid as I am I talked about how I hate my body and voice and now I am even more afraid. I already had to run away ones when they outed me as bisexual. This time it can only end up being so much worse

                • RtHonAlice
                  2·
                  10 days ago

                  That is a rough situation, but fear of outing yourself doesn’t make you any less trans. In the other posts you’re questioning if you’re trans, well, you are and threatening or beating you doesn’t change that, contrary to what cissoids believe. The first step here is to accept yourself for what you are and then look for feasible ways to navigate this. Repping isn’t one of them.

                  • DysphoriaGirlOP
                    2·
                    10 days ago

                    But the fear doesn’t go away and it paralyzes me… I just feel so paralyzed

                  • DysphoriaGirlOP
                    2·
                    10 days ago

                    I will try, I promise but I don’t know if I can. I just feel so utterly trapped