My boyfriend was like get these vouchers that work like debit cards no KYC. I was like okay and then I bought estradiol tablets and Spiro on in-house pharmacy. I got them off a better site called QHI later.

I might have done bloods at GP like once… I always felt fine.

‘Im not trans’ is what I thought after meeting trans girls… But other than that I’m not entirely certain why I stopped hrt. Also I was definitely too stupid to realise my face still gonna grow… anyway, after eventually becoming terrified of the thought of aging as a man, I ended up back on HRT. What did stopping gain me? Nothing, it didn’t need to be stopped…I got myself the breast tissue already and I think 3 years or Spiro is surefire infertility…so hrt had nothing else permenant to do to me

Did HRT 17-20 and restarted later

I guess maybe the length of re-exposure to T would be similar to if I went until 22 without HRT…

I have lots of photographic evidence of what I used to look like. I recreated one picture and it’s quite amazing how much it has matured, unfortunately prior to this I was oblivious to the amount of difference beforehand. I guess I have a compulsion to tell someone somewhere about this to feel noticed for my misfortune… like I experienced a life altering accident. But the obvious foolishness on my part will probably make everyone totally unsympathetic.

Looking at existing periods of time where my face was different and I liked it much more and it’s on HRT… What a feeling to bare.

55.12 British mpg yea that’s not bad

Well it might be true and I’ve thought same about myself

But can you stop asking yourself “what if”? Transition just ends up staying on the table

I see, thanks for the information!

I am sciencehon could someone who’s lost loads of weight and then tries to gain it on HRT be worse off than someone who’s history has always been skinny and then gains weight? I wish I could learn how the fat cell behaviour stuff works in detail. Also have U not considered pio

Astrovials I think she just can’t sell more when ppl haven’t received their order yet for ages due to a postal service problem

I eat fiddy eggs a day

Im sure I can increase breast cancer risk slightly than what it is now but I can’t imagine being scared of breast cancer as a trans woman, the risk will be a fraction of what it is for old cis women for ur entire life

Hmmm idk I think they definitely look like the same species… probably human?

The pooner memes are so stupid that it feels like it would be weird to take them seriously but everything is serious if you feel shitty about yourself enough… stupidest part is they always say ‘dood’ in the captions like it’s trying to make fun of them using that word when all of society uses it.

What if ‘passes’ is whatever goalpost a person who sez it wants it to be… Also what if they “look like a girl” “to me” but I also know they’re trans because I’m satisfied that the list of uncommon measurements or proportions doesn’t pass off as a genetically strange cis or intersex person… That they MUST be trans but jarring masculine features are just not there at all… What if jarring masculine features are ALWAYS more bothersome on myself than on anyone else like I could respect a John 50s identity more than my own…

Well what if sexual dimorphism has never been fully intellectualized, as well as peoples recognition of gender always has subjectivity to it…

Also is any of this good for my sanity… Can I ever actually have a more conclusive view of what matters and how gender truly works etc…

I guess I hate gender’s hold it has on my life

Quoting Posie Parker isn’t cool, Rinoa

Just to add u were never wrong in thinking she should help u, it’s very reasonable and she knows how important hrt is, but ig just don’t demonise her and it’s her choice… I’m sorry that she was cold to u, I hope u can feel closer to her again or some1 else

Ummmm other trans people licherally want U to become a hon… How dare you not be one…

Whatever past generosities you’ve given to her, it doesn’t indebt her unless it was apart of the deal somehow… Beyond that if you analyse her decisions or analyse where her heart is that is bad karma and psychologically unhealthy but also on this forum we are a place of psychologically unhealthy behaviours so it feels weird to point out ☺️